Since We Were Kids (Thomas Brodie-Sangster)

Chapter Four

A/N - Hey guys and welcome to Chapter Four. Picture of Will ^^^^^^ Some of the content in this chapter may be triggering, so please don't read it if you feel like you may be triggered by the content.

----- Hannah's P.O.V -----

I have just got back to my apartment from visiting my mum in the hospital and she isn't in a good way. She has tubes everywhere, she has broken her right leg, two ribs and her skull is fractured. She is conscious but she isn't that with it, she can talk to you but then the next minute she will ask you the same question because she doesn't remember what you said. I hate seeing her like that, I am so close with my mum because my dad used to work away a lot and it would just be me and my mum in the house. I would talk to my dad about it but he won't understand, he still doesn't think that I should be here, he thinks that I should be in Louisiana with Wes and that annoys me because I am here to see my mum when she has been in a car accident, shouldn't he want me to be here?

I miss everyone back on set. I miss Will because he always makes me laugh even on the worst days, I miss Ki because he is so kind, I miss Dylan because he will always talk to me and make sure that I'm okay even if he is busy, I miss Kaya because she is my only girl friend and of course I miss Tommy because I am in freaking love with him. Usually I wouldn't be missing him this bad but because I have seen him again and spent some time with him it hurts even more to be away from him, heck I'm not even dating him right now even though I want to be.

Maybe it would just be better if I wasn't here at all, I doubt that my dad would be bothered considering he doesn't even want me here, I don't think that my mum is going to recover all that well, Kaya, Will, Dylan and Ki haven't known me for that long so it won't affect them and I'm sure that Thomas can find someone else to be friends with, he just won't ever know that I love him. I guess I could just take away the pain for a while, that always seems to help, I don't express my feelings because I don't want to be judged on who I am, I don't want to have people hold how I feel against me, it has happened before and I refuse to let anyone else in now because there is always that fear that they will backstab me and leave me out on the curb.

I walk into my bathroom and pull out something that I haven't touched in a long time; ever since Thomas helped me stop I haven't touched it. I sit down and lean against the sink cabinet, I take a deep breath contemplating whether or not I should be doing this. I think that this is for the best, it helps me forget for a while, forget everything that is going on, focus on something else and everything else just seems to go away, the pain goes away. No one would even be bothered about this anyway, my parents never knew and they never will, Thomas was the only one that I trusted enough to tell, sure he helped me stop but he isn't here now and I don't think that he would even care.

----- Thomas' P.O.V -----

So, I have just visited Hannah's mum, quite quickly, just saying a hello to her dad and seeing how her mum is. Based on how her mum is doing, Hannah will not be in a good way, I know her too well. I'm on my way to her apartment now, she always keeps a spare key on the top of the doorframe just in case someone is stopping by or she forgets her own key.

I walk into Hannah's apartment but she isn't on the sofa and she isn't in the kitchen. I go into her bedroom and she isn't in their either, where is she? Her car is here. I hear crying coming from the ensuite bathroom, I push the door open lightly and see Hannah sitting on the floor, her head in her hands and blood coming out of her wrist along with blood on the floor "Hanni?" I ask and she looks up at me holding the razor in her left hand "Why are you doing this?" I ask sitting down next to her and taking the razor out of her hand before throwing it into the toilet "Why do you care?" she asks glaring at me "Do you even need to ask that?" I ask and she nods "No one cares anymore. I seem to be the only one worried about my mum. My dad doesn't even want me here. Why are you here?" she asks and I sigh pulling her into me "I came to see you. I knew that you wouldn't be handling this well" I say.

I wipe Hannah's cuts and put a bandage around her wrist "Why this? Why did you go back to it?" I ask and she shrugs "It takes the pain away Thomas. It helps me to forget. You wouldn't know" she says standing up and walking out of the bathroom "HANNAH" I shout but she doesn't stop walking until she reaches the front door "Leave Thomas" she says pointing to the door and I shake my head "I am not leaving Hannah. I am your best friend for a reason. I am here for you" I say and she slumps down to the floor "A friend?" she asks looking up at me "Is that all you want to be?" she asks as I sit down next to her "What do you mean love?" I ask and she sighs "You are so dumb" she says and I chuckle lightly "Thanks love but I don't get what you meant" I say and she looks to me "I'm in love with you idiot. I shouldn't be but I am" she says and I freeze. Did she just say that? Is it the tears and sorrow talking? Does she actually mean what she said?

"You don't feel the same way and I know that. That is why you need to leave. If you comfort me it will make it even harder for me to move on but I just don't want to" she says and I pull her into my arms "Don't move on. Don't forget" I say holding her as she cries again "I love you Hannah. I love your smile and how it lights up any room. I love how your eyes let me see into your soul. I love how I can read you like a book. I love your personality, you never let people in but I am the one person you let in. I just love you" I say and she looks up at me like I've gone crazy "You have to be joking. You're just saying that to comfort me" she says and I shake my head "Trust me love. I have never been more truthful in my life" I say wiping the tears away that have fallen down her cheeks "I guess I need to ask you something" I say and she smiles weakly "Hannah Minnie Owen" I say putting my hands on either side of her face making her giggle – which is adorable by the way – "Will you be my girlfriend?" I ask and she nods "I will" she says.

I hesitantly lean forward, not knowing if she wants me to but she takes my by surprise and meets me halfway. Kissing her just lets fireworks off. Wow, I am completely and utterly in love with this girl. When she pulls away she has a massive grin on her face, like the one a little child has when it gets its favourite toy.

----- Hannah's P.O.V -----

When I kiss Thomas it feels amazing, like nothing I have ever felt before. I can't believe that he actually loves me back, let alone the fact that we are now dating. He didn't find me in the best position though; I honestly thought that he was just here to tell me he had found someone or that I shouldn't go back to Louisiana because no one wants me there. My head was spinning with random things, telling me that no one cared and that no one wanted me to be with them. I know that Thomas cares now, I still feel like the others care too, they will be my friends for life I think because nothing can stop me being there and knowing them nothing will stop them from helping me. I was just in a bad place for a minute there, it happens from time to time.

Thomas and I are now lying in my bed. We're both on our backs, he has his right arm under my head acting as a pillow, his left hand is holding my left hand and my head is rested lightly on his chest. Occasionally he will press a kiss to my forehead, letting me know that he is still here. "When do you go back Tommy?" I ask as I play with our hands "When you go back, I go with you" he says and I lift my head slightly to look at him "Really? You're allowed to do that?" I ask and he nods "I spoke to Wes before I left. He knows about it" he says and I kiss him gently, I feel him smile into the kiss and his right arm moves to my waist pulling me in closer "I love you" he breathes when we pull away "I have since we were kids" he says and we both smile.

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That was Chapter Four, hope you liked it.

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Till the next chapter.............