ON HOLD ' 3 years had gone by since chris and doja haven't spoken, no letters, no phone calls, nothing from one another. But when their parents came to a agreement to have family time that they finally face each others demons.
Can chris forgive do...
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' My family showed me nothing but love and excitement, they kept giving me hugs and kisses and didn't want to leave my side especially my mother. We was at the dinner table sitting as one big happy family, eating, joking around and laughing the feeling of this moment felt good even though chris didn't say a word to me nor looked my way, I mean I did say I don't want to speak to chris but as soon as I step foot in my old home and seen him it was like .. It was like something hit me in my back that my chest started to hurt.
" so doja where have you been these past 3 years ?" Cisco asked me
" New York with Ashley-"
" New York ? Honey I thought you said you was in Nevada " my mother said I looked at everyone and seen that they was staring at me I looked back at my mother
" I was at first but I decided to move to New York ... new job " I told her she nodded and went back to eating her food.
" so how's life been treating you D ? I mean it's been forever since you last came to visit ya friends mf " Jamie asked
" it's been good, finally done with chemotherapy started teaching 3rd graders last year-"
" teacher ? Wow D never thought you was the teaching type" Cisco said I smiled at him
" and I never thought you would be married nigga when that happened ?" I asked him we smiled ear to ear and dusted off his shoulder
" ya know a player had to take a break for a minute -" Danny cut him off
" a minute? Nigga marriage is life the fuck you talking about " he said making Cisco look stupid we laughed but in the corner of my eye I seen chris staring at me with a blank face I ignored it and went back to talking to the people that matters.
" to be honest doja I thought you was going to be walking in this bitch with a nigga on ya shoulder" Jamie said
" oh god no , im done with dating-"
" you was dating ? Fuck happened " I looked at Ashley and then back at them.
" ughh I guess he wasn't the one for me " I said , chris got up from his seat and walked out of the dinning room towards the living room, I don't understand what's up with him I get that I walked out on him at the wrong time but it's been 3 years since then. Me and the family continued to talk for about 20 minutes they started to clean the kitchen together as for me .. I needed to speak to chris , I know I said I wouldn't but it was like something was telling me that I have to clear the air with him once and for all. He wasn't around the house so I checked outside and seen him smoking a cigarette while standing on the porch. I watched as he continued to smoke his cigarette, looking at his body he got buff , more tattoos he looked good.
" that kills you , you know " I said catching his attention he looked back at me and seen that I was standing behind him, he took another puff from the cigarette and looked away. I walked all the way outside and stood next to him not saying anything just watching how the people in the bikes was riding past. I wanted him to say something , anything. Shit yell , curse me out tell me how bogus I am.. but I got nothing.
" so how you been ?" I started off he chuckled
" don't act like you care man" he said puffing his cig once more blowing the smoke out. I had both hands in my pocket as I looked at him. Clearly he don't want to speak to me so I don't have to keep trying , as I was about to walk back into the house he stopped me.
" I've been alright " he said I turned back around .. okay that's a start
" that's good" I said it was silence again. " I see that Kevin finally cut his dreads off.. I think he looks better with them" I said joking he laughed a little before he threw his cigarette down on the ground and turning his body to face mines. We stared at eachother, as his eyes locked mines butterflies started to build up in my stomach. My heart started to race just remembering how we was good together, how we was happy once and how I loved him deeply. I wanted to say I'm sorry , I wanted to come clean of why I really left but he would hate me more than how he hate me now.
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" chris I-" I was interrupted by a woman walking up to the porch.
" hey baby " she said to chris kissing him on the lips in front of me, chris didn't say anything the girl seen that I was standing there.
" who's this ?" She asked
" this is my step sister doja .. doja this is my fiancé Alena" I looked at chris in surprise as he told me that she was his fiancé , she had a big smile on her face before grabbing me into a hug.
" oh my god it's nice to finally meet you " she said to me and released me I put on a fake smile for her " your family has been talking a lot about you I was hoping I see you one day" she said
" well I'm here " I said " c-can I see ?" I asked referring to her ring she gladly placed her hand in my face flashing the ring chris gave her .. my ring
" w-wowww I-it's beautiful " I said looking at it and then I looked at chris " looks just like the one I have " I said
" is it ? God he accidentally gave me the wrong size it's a little small for me but we going to re size it soon, right baby ?" She said wrapping his arm around his torso, I don't want to be emotional I don't want to regret leaving him years ago and say I should've been the one he would marry
" I'm happy for you guys " I said before walking back inside the house, my chest tighten up as I closed my eyes trying not to cry or a panic attack
" doja " I heard I turned around and seen chris walking back inside the house closing the screen door behind him.
" sorry I had something in my eye " I said as I caught the tear that tried to fall. He sighed as he stood infront of me
" I didn't mean to give her the ring, she found it and I couldn't tell her-" I cut him off
" chris it's okay ... it wasn't my ring to begin with I gave it back. I'm actually happy for you " I said to him, I am happy for chris, because he's happy that's all I wanted for him, as we stood there in silence we both looked at each other I missed him , since I left I wanted to hear his voice I wanted to talk to him every night about my day, laugh, cry with this man. I can't catch feelings for him he belong to someone else
" I think my mom is looking for me so-" As I was about to leave he softly grab my hand stopping me , butterflies in my stomach as a chill went down my body. I looked back at him
" can we talk ? ... please " he said
" chris I-" his fiancé came walking inside I pulled my hand from chris he didn't even look her way his eyes stayed on mines, I glared at him one last time before walking away from them. I need strength
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