ON HOLD ' 3 years had gone by since chris and doja haven't spoken, no letters, no phone calls, nothing from one another. But when their parents came to a agreement to have family time that they finally face each others demons.
Can chris forgive do...
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' another day where I have to face my demons once more. I wouldn't say being here is terrible but it's awkward and depressing, at the park yesterday it took everything in me not to jump on chris and tell him not to get married to his woman , to love me once again and call me his. His face yesterday made me regret even leaving him, I'm guilty for everything I did.
I didn't know what to do or say when he finally asked me why did I leave him, I couldn't tell him because I'm a coward. I'm scared that he would hate me more he's getting married, he loves someone else, he has a life that he wanted so why would I break that up ?
" doja , you okay ?" Ashley asked I looked at her and sighed and looked back down at my hands
" chris tried to talk to me yesterday"
" well , how was it ?"
" not what I planned" I said , I want to tell chris everything I've been holding feelings and secrets back from him for 3 years. He deserves to know everything but not right now.. not today and not while he's getting married.
" doja- he will come around when you both are ready to face " she said I looked at her
" how can I face him and tell him what I did ? And why I left ? He would never forgive me ash"
" he's getting married doja , he's happy, he's in love it's what you wanted. Right ? So he would probably understand and if not at least you got it off your chest" she was right at the most part but knowing chris or how I used to know him he would go crazy over a big ass lie like what I held from him.
" I guess you're right, it's just that ..."
" you still love him ?"
" I'm trying Ashley I am , 3 years of not thinking of him and now that I'm here near him my feelings grew stronger" it hurts my feelings seeing that woman with my rings on her hand, hearing her call him baby and her lover , she don't love him. She would never love him how I did and still do ... would she do anything for him ? Would she forgive him for everything ? I don't know
" and that's why you can't tell him , you too close to this man that you can't even bring yourself to tell him. I need you to pick up ya feelings and be strong d cause it's been going on for too long now" she said I nodded my head
" I will soon " I said we heard someone knocking on the door making us look at the doorway seeming chris fiancé Alena
" hey , I was just bored and just wanted to see what you guys was up to" she said , she's a sweet person very beautiful
" come inside " Ashley said , this bitch. Alena came inside and pulled up one of the rolling chairs and sat down.
" I don't know if chris told you but I'm very happy that you agreed to be my maid of honor " she said to me I smiled at her
