pansamantala | lizrei

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“Life sucks”
Napatingin ako sa katabi ko habang binuksan ang isang can ng soda. Hmm, bubbles.

“I know” ngumiti siya sakin at kinuha yung soda sa kamay ko.

Wha— akin yun eh.

Napasimangot nalang ako at kumuha pa ng isa.

“So what is it this time? ” tanong ko kay Rei na nakatingin sa dagat mula dito sa taas. “What?” tanong niya pabalik sabay inom ng soda.

Don't look at me like that woman. Don't look at me with that soft innocent eyes of yours.

“Oh come on Rei, I know you. Sinasabi mo lang yan pag nag-away kayo ng boyfriend mo”

Di siya sumagot at ibinaling niya ang tingin muli sa dagat, pinagmamasdan ang palubog na araw kasabay ng mga alon na pabalikbalik sa baybayin.

“Ano na naman ba pinag-awayan niyo?” tanong ko ulit, nagbabakasakaling sagutin niya talaga tanong ko.

“He's being a jerk. One time he's sweet then next he's sadistic and cold. 'Di ko na siya maintindihan Liz”

Rei took a last sip of her soda at itinapon niya ang empty can sa may trashcan.

Andito kami sa pier. Dito ako nagpapalipas oras minsan or just simply wanna hang out 'cause it's peaceful here and makikita ko talaga ang buong dagat plus ang night view sa city.

Okay lang kahit dito na'ko tumira.

But since Rei came, di na'ko nag-iisa dito, wala na yung peaceful time ko dahil sakanya na todo gulo sakin para libutin ang buong city at ang mga lugar na diko inasahang mapuntahan.

Well, i don't mind as long as she's happy.

Tumango nalang ako sa sagot niya. Ang ganda ng sunset pero mas maganda siya.

“Have you ever thought of breaking up with him?” with that, she turns to look at me with a serious face.

“I haven't, di yan pumasok sa isip ko since i focused on him more than his flaws. I love him so much, fights and misunderstandings are just normal in relationships right?” her face softens this time.

Right, he loves that guy so much to the point she can't see the way I look at her, the way I treated her as more than a friend.

“Yeah, but too much fights aren't normal, someday you two will separate because you can't understand each other anymore” sabi ko at tumingin sakanya, napatingin din siya sakin.

Same vibes but not the same feelings. Ouch.

I'm inlove with her pero di niya alam. Siguro dahil sa martyr ako or I already knew my limits in the first place.

Pinapakita ko naman pagmamahal ko sakanya sa ibang paraan, di niya lang talaga mapansin like, is she dumb or just dumb?

“Alam 'kong mahal din niya ko Liz.” Mahal din kita Rei, sana alam mo yun.

“You sure about that?”

“Oo, salamat pala sa pagcheer-up mo sakin” Mama, yung eyesmile niya. *cries*

“Wala naman akong ginawa?”

“I mean, your presence is already enough to cheer me up and I wouldn't be too sad 'cause i gotchuu!”

Yeah, she's really dumb and no, I'm not out of my mind. I'm just inlove. So much inlove.