pansamantala | lizrei

III

Tahimik lang kami.

Humiga ako at nagfocus sa mga stars sa taas. Ang ganda.

May mukhang kuneho, pusa, tsaka—

“GUSTO KO NA MAWALA DITO SA MUNDO” napalingon ako ng biglang sumigaw si Rei.

“Anong ginagawa mo?” tanong ko at bumangon mula sa kinahigaan ko.

Tiningnan niya 'ko at ngumiti, “naglalabas ng sama ng loob”

“baka mahulog ka dyan” andon pa naman siya sa may dulo ng cliff.

“Liz, samahan mo nalang ako dali” aya niya.

“Ayoko nga”

“Daliii na”

“Ayoko sabi”

“It's fun, come on, don't be such a bummer” insist niya pa.

Wala na'kong choice, tumayo ako at tumabi sakanya, looking like a dumb person who's waiting for what she'd do next.

“Okay, try mo sumigaw ng kung ano nasa isip mo like ganto—SANA MASARAP ULAM NIYO”

I gave her a look that says 'seriously?' but I did what she said anyway.

“Ah..eh..GUSTO KO NG ICE CREAM! NAGC'CRAVE AKO NG ICE CREAM” tuloy-tuloy na kaming nagsigawan to the max.

“WALA KANG KWENTA” she yelled at the top of her lungs.

“SIR JUNG PANOT”

“ANG SAMA MO SAKIN” yan. tama yan rei.

“MA, BAGSAK AKO SA SCIENCE ” habang siya ay naglalabas ng mga hinanakit na kagagawan ng bf niya, ako naman ay ang mga hinanakit ko sa mga teachers sa school.

Makabigay ng low grades, wagas.

“Uy, bagsak ka din? same” patawang sabi niya. Oo, same vibes pero not the same feelings.

“ANG GANDA KO” #fact

Feeling ko pupuntahan na kami ng police dito kakasigaw. Wala naman akong pake kahit hulihin pa nila kami atleast napasaya ko si Rei.

Nagagawa ba naman ng pagmamahal, tsk.

“WAAHH” ay, baliw lang?

“SIRAULO KA REI HINULOG MO YUNG ISA 'KONG SAPATOS” sigaw ko, tinitingnan ang sapatos kong nahuhulog hanggang sa hindi ko na ito makita.

Goodbye sapatos.

I looked at her direction with a glare. Maybe I can push her from the cliff and make it look like an accident. Just kidding.

At ayun na nga humagalpak siya ng tawa habang hinahampas ang damuhan. Grabe, ang saya saya.

Bumalik nalang ako sa puwesto ko, prinoproblema kung pa'no ako makakauwi ng hindi masugatan isang paa ko sa paglakad.

“Walangya” bulong ko.

Di naman niya maririnig 'yun kasi busy siya kakatawa.

Hope you choke.

Sigh, makapag-music na nga lang.

'Sometimes I wish you knew,
but I disguised the truth'

Maya-maya, tumigil na siya kakatawa. Pabalik siyang pinunasan ang mga luhang nasa gilid ng mga mata niya.

Happy tears.

'I say I'm happy but I'm still stuck on us'

“Grabe ka liz ngayon lang ako nakatawa ng ganto” sabi niya pagkaupo sa tabi ko.

“Grabe ka din rei sa ganon lang tawang-tawa kana? Para ka'ng timang”

Tumawa siya ulit, “Eh, it's just, yung sapatos mo, pano kana uuwi niyan?”

'Does your mind play this game too,
think 'bout me and you'

“Oo nga, sana naisip mo 'yan bago mo hinulog sapatos ko 'no” I replied, making a 'tsk' sound.

“You should have seen your face earlier, you're making this angry face like in those cartoon movies, but in a cute way” describe niya at nagwink.

Mame. Pinakabog niya naman puso ko.

'I guess I'll just pretend until it all makes sense'

Agad akong umiwas ng tingin ng naramdaman 'kong nag-iinit ang aking mga pisnge. Damn this feeling.

'See you face to face I'm thinking 'bout the days we used to be,
but i can't make a scene, but i cant make a scene'

“Keep that” I began, looking at my only shoe by my side and to my bare feet.

I need to buy another pair tomorrow, sigh.

“Keep what?” she asked, her head tilting a little.

Cutie.

'See you face to face I'm thinking 'bout the days we used to be'

“That smile of yours keep it. You look more beautiful with it.”

Di siya sumagot but instead she looked up to the sky, still wearing that smile with a little blush on her cheeks that's now my favorite.

Ha! It's your turn to feel the butterflies now.

'but i can't make a scene'

Then, she looked at me again as she scooted closer, “So what are you playing? ” she took one of my earphone to listen on.

'but I can't make a scene,'

“Something on my playlist”

“Okay” she speaks with her usual tiny voice.

'Like I want you,
you'

Comfortable silence engulfed us two as we stared at the city lights in the distance. Just when I was about to speak, I felt a weight on my shoulder that caused my breath to hitch.

Our heads are 5 cm apart. One move and my face will touch hers. God, I can feel my heart beating so wildly that I wonder if she can hear it.

'Even if it's true'

“Rei?”

“...”

“Rei?” Lumayo ako ng konti at napangiti ng makita ko ang natutulog niyang mukha.

Ambilis niya namang makatulog.

As i continued to stare at her, I noticed how the moonlight matched with her sleeping state is just so heavenly. She's positively ethereal.

'Even if it's true'

Slowly leaning my head on top of hers, I whispered the words, “Only if you knew”