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careless whisper

hello all! this is the second non-requested part. i got inspired by the song "careless whisper" by george michael (that's where the title comes from). i know it's kind of a meme song, but all jokes aside, it's very beautiful. the story is quite a serious one, but there will be a happy ending!

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Although everyone was enjoying themselves, you weren't having any fun whatsoever. It all seemed so gray and muddy. The music playing wasn't evoking any feelings in you. The jokes cracked from time to time may have put a little smile on you, but they didn't end the hunger of frustrating numbness. You just sat there wondering what went wrong. 

It all started when he walked out, leaving you with many questions. Confused, you watched him go outside. He looked like nothing happened. Why was he ignoring you? Well, this is a question you didn't get answered. So many questions, so little answers. You'd die to know what was going on in his mind. You thought about the things that happened since you met. Then you realized: he thought that all the things that you told him were just lies. He didn't think that one could ever love him the way that he is. Insecurity took over his mind and destroyed him from the inside, making him unable to believe that someone could adore him as himself. You knew very well that no compliments or material things could fix that. 

You never told him face to face "I love you". You thought he knew that from the way that you behaved near him, looked at him, talked to him - foolishly, didn't even think about his feelings.

The huge party was amazingly hosted, but it didn't even matter to you. Without James, nothing mattered. 

So many people here, but you still felt lonely. 

- Now, a slow dance song for ya! - you heard a voice, and before you could even look at whose voice was that, the song has started. You knew it well from the saxophones in the beggining: it was Careless Whisper.

You kind of just sat there, listening to the lirycs. Then the chorus came in and you felt something inside you.

I'm never gonna dance again

Guilty feet have got no rhythm

Though it's easy to pretend

I know you're not a fool

Should've known better than to cheat a friend

And waste the chance that I'd been given

So I'm never gonna dance again

The way I danced with you

These lirycs explained how you felt. Not only that, they encouraged you to stand up and search for James; you knew it was like searching for a needle in a pile of hay, but you were very desperate. You searched for him almost everywhere. Well, not exactly. You knew where to look for him. He wasn't on the dancefloor - he didn't like to dance. Alone, at least. He wouldn't dance with anyone other than you. 

You almost gave up. You stood here, feeling defeated. Suddenly, you saw him: he stood at the other side of the dancefloor. You made eye contact with him. Before he could even recognize you, you ran to him as fast as you could. You hugged him and said:

- I love you.

He hugged you back by putting you closer to himself and picking you up a bit.

- I'm so sorry - he said - for being such a dumb piece of shit.

- Oh, James... you don't have to apologize. It was me who was selfish all that time.

- It's alright. You weren't selfish at all. What made you think that?

- I didn't say that I love you and was just expecting you to know that already.

- I can't take a hint. I'm not the smartest guy, you know... I guess we were in this together, huh? - he laughed.

The emotions were so intense that you two didn't even notice the song change. Hopelessly Devoted To You was playing.

- Do you... want to dance? - James asked.

- Of course - you said, putting your hands on his face and smiling. You both began to dance. Even though he wasn't the best dancer, it didn't matter, because as long as he's beside you, you're the happiest person in the world.

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emotional wreck, wasn't it? i hope you like it, because i'm kinda proud of this :)<3

- love, j♥