emo/mute girl

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autums pov

sitting in your room almost all summer  break sucks. i have snuck out of the house a few times when my dad was passed out drunk after beating and yelling at me. right now i am home alone locked in my room waiting for the demon to get home. i mean he turned into one after my mom left. i was blamed for her leaveing and i started to blame myself. this is the last day of break ad i am going to be a senoir.i am happy about that i will be 18 in like 5 months and i can leave. i have been saving money so i can move out of the house. i mean the day i turn 18 i am leaving. i get pulled out of my thoughts when the door gets slamed down stairs. joy. he is drunk. note my sarcasim. 

"autum where the hell are you." he yelled. that is my que to leave. i go to my window and jump on the tree right next to the window. i climb down the tree and run down the street. why does he always have to come home during the night. i know that i am going to get introuble for this but i need to heal from last night. i stop at the park and the only people around is a group of what looks like all guys and me. i look at them and they are circling around something.

i dont wanna know or get in the middle of it. i dont need anyhing bad happen to me anytime soon. yea i would help someone if i talked and wasnt so god dam weak. yea i can take a a few hits but people gotta heal so that is what i am doing. and i have to enjoy my last day of break even though this has been a living hell. my dad has even seen me on the ground almost dead from trying to kill myself and when the neighbors came over there daughter found me and called for help. now they are over here like twice a week and my dad is not happy about it. yea when i left the hospital my dad didnt pick me up so i had to walk home. when i g got home there was no one there.

that happened a few times. yea now i am sitting on a bench at the park and thinking of how the same people are going to treat me. probably the same way as always. considering i have no friends i am fine then i have no one to hurt me but my dad and me. my dad will yell at me for the blood that is in the bathroom and in my room. the bathroom is my fault the room is my dads fault.

i walk and climb the tree to get to my room. i go my door is opened. my dad was probably in here. i close my door and take a shower. i put on sweat pants and a tank top. i lay in bed looking at my phone. not like i have messages or anything like that. i just wanted to play a game. my grandparents would talk to me but stopped after i stopped talking. they would come over and try to get me to talk. they stopped after awhile. i put my phone on the charger and turn off my lights to make my room darker then it is already. my walls are black and red and my currtens are black and only opened when i sneak out or want to draw. i lay there for another 20 minutes thinking of random shit untill i fall asleep.

blakes pov

oh great tomarrows the first day of school. i moved and now i am going to a new school with new people. more people to hate. i was told by my parents that we are done moving but i will have to sse that to belive it. i mean i hope i dont have to move anymore i will be 18 in 3 weeks. if my parents move i am staying here. if it isnt as bad as the last place. i was trreated like shit. maybe if i dont get bothered it would be perfect. i will talk to some people but that will be the teacher and the people that try to talk to me. i am alone cause my parents are away on some vacation for about 6 months so i am alone. but its not the first time they always go on so i dont really care anymore. they started this after i was old enough to whatch myself.

well now i am laying in my room whatching some scary movie. i never get these movies they dont scare me. i mean what is this supposed to be about a killer ghost. i mean come on cant they do btter then that. iv seen better tv shows then this. screw this. i am putting the walking dead on this is just boaring. or should i just go to sleep. i do have school tomarrow. doesnt mean i want to go. i will watch it until i am tired.

5 episoids and i am still not tired. it is like 1 in the morning. lets just say i am hungry. i walk downstairs into the kitshen and make a sandwitch. i walk back to my room and watch tv and eat. i lay back down and watch something else. something that i know would make me fall asleep. after an hour i finally fall asleep.