Your Little Shoe Collection

Your Little Shoe Collection
You think I'm talking about YOU?
Well if the shoe fits...
Take it as your own.
Hope your wardrobe is big enough for your shoe collection.

Burning Ceremony
Let's light a fire.
Burn away the issues that burden us.
Oh no,
I found an issue.
It's me.
Should I step in the fire?
Or should I push you in before you realize I'm the issue?
Let's light a fire.
And burn our poetry books by it.

Tarot Cards
Passed me a message from my past.
Present my present.
I'm in good fortune for the future.
Easter eggs of our lives.
Our story.
Is what is being revealed aligning with the conspiracies of us?
Focus,
Can you see the devil in the details?

Addiction
Control uncontrollable emotions.
Uncontrollable use of a substance.
Outsiders call it poison.
The user calls it medicine.
One more dose.
Two more dose.
No more dose.
The cause of uncontrollable emotions they so desperately wanted to control.
Self awareness was more painful than self sabotage.
"I miss it."
But was it really as good as memory made it so?
I was the addict.
You were my dealer.
The only person who could offer my drug with substance.

"I've Changed."
in a town of skeletons on diets of cigarettes and soda.
running around train stations frantically finding other skeletons
to have your breakfast of scrambled nicotine and a cup of fizzy caffeine.
She changed.
They were ready.
Pen blindly drawing her.
I was her.
I wasn't ready.

Porcelain Doll
Fragile yet so divine.
Perfect just for you.
Whole just for you.
Shattered into Pieces.
Every piece of the Porcelain Doll lying on the cold floor.
Could you please glue Porcelain Doll back together?
Guess I'll do it myself.
Other individuals with broken Porcelain Dolls.
Shattered pieces in the shape of mine.
Shattered pieces for the same reason as mine.
We picked up the pieces we had in common.
And left the pieces we didn't like behind.

Light & Shallow
Keep it shallow.
Keep it light.
Surface Level.
My deepness drowned you.
My darkness blinded you.
You thought that surface level was your comfort zone.
But I think your comfort zone was ignorance.

Seasonal Insanity
Seasons fly by,
As Well as the seasons of the shows we liked.
Seasonal depression as I grieve my seasonal mania.
Seasonal mania without you.
Guess I'm better off.
There will never be a season where I'm fully healed.
However,
Enough seasons would've passed to have processed my
Seasonal insanity.

Get To Sleep
Mascara on the bed sheets.
How the hell will I get to sleep?
Pleased with how deeply you hurt me.
How the hell do you get to sleep?

Innocence & Wisdom
We're comfortable with what we know.
Even if it hurts us.
We're afraid of what we don't know.
Because it could potentially hurt us.
Change feels treacherous.
No Change is lethal to our growth.
We grieve what we used to know,
Grieving innocence.
Maturity is embracing what we know now,
Embracing wisdom.

Balance
We love balance.
We love balance in all aspects of our lives.
Could we ever be too balanced?
Could we ever be so balanced we don't have unbalanced aspects
To Balance out the balanced aspects?
Could imbalance be just as vital to our stability and growth as
Balance?

Tall Poppy Syndrome
A tall poppy,
Once tall but tall no more.
Attempting to cut off the stems of her tall poppy friends.
She cut off her own stem instead.
Stemmed from her insecurity that she was not as tall as them.
As the tall poppy grew back her stem,
She realised her tall poppy friends
Were not as tall as she thought.

Nostalgia
A feeling of grief but simultaneously reminiscence,
Sometimes when were are in the presence of our trauma,
Little do we know,
It's our future nostalgia that is present.
Where we are in time is not the burden,
Nostalgia is.

Controversial Art Form
Language can be strung together to create artistic poetry.
Art can be formed to communicate poetic art.
Language offends as well as art.
Could eliciting offense in others be an art form within itself?
Controversy: that's my art form.

Nice Guy
Nice guy, Kind guy,
Says everything right guy.
A "feminist" who overly preaches women's rights guy.
Nice guy, Kind guy,
Would never tell you lies guy.
Trust him with your drink and wouldn't attempt to spike guy.
Nice guy, Kind guy,
Speaks over his wife guy,
Believes he's never wrong with his intellect and his mind guy,
Nice guy, Kind guy,
Is blind to the irony of what I write guy.
He is not special and one of a kind guy.

Human Again
Wasn't the first time I snuck into Mum's room to cry all night.
However it was the first time
In a long time
I cried and it wasn't because I wanted to end my life.
The first time in a long time I could actually feel something.
The first time in a long time I didn't feel everything yet nothing.
I felt human again.
In this moment in time,
I felt I was worthy of this life of mine.

Blockage
Blockage in my mind?
Am I refusing to explore my emotions?
Just ignore my emotions.
A rabbit hole I so desperately do not want to go down.
My heart wants to follow a  white rabbit leading to the rabbit hole
but the rabbit hole is blocked.
My mind is telling me to stay out and keep 'Wonderland' locked.
"Eat me"
"Drink me"
Substances to help me fit through the lock.
Maybe it might take a river of my own tears to get in.
I want to see where my mind can truly take me.

If I saw you again
Do you still think about me?
Yeah, me neither.
While listening to Mitski?
I would never.
For I have let you go in my reality,
But why are you present in my dreams?
Is there something you forgot to tell me?
If I saw you again,
In blood and flesh,
I wouldn't know what to say.
But I need something said,
To truly let go,
Because this stagnace of energy
Is killing me.

Cloud Gaze
Lying down,
I looked up at the sky,
Not a single cloud to be seen.
I closed my eyes.
"Just Breathe."
Sound of trees dancing.
Grass cuddled my back.
The Sun's warmth kissed my skin.
Eyes opened.
Birds circled me in harmony.
The sky was less clear.
Clouds painted in the sky.
The picture was clearer.
It makes more sense to me.
Breathing with an open chest.
I was free.

The Cat In The Hat
9% on Rotten Tomatoes.
Such poor reviews.
So much outrage.
However, such a genius film.
This is what the Cat would've wanted.
He wants outrage.
He wants people to be disgusted.
Sometimes,
if we let the outrageous
Out rage us,
We're letting them win.

Beautiful Things
beautiful feelings
beautiful places
beautiful times
beautiful faces
All the beautiful things I see
while the world spins at an ugly pace.
the ugliest weeks
consist of the ugliest amount of uncertainty.

Self Punishment
willing to punish myself
because deep down I know,
I'm lying to myself
do i do this to protect me?
or am i my own worst enemy?

Just As Well
just received the best news.
pick up the phone to call you
but you don't care.
after everything I've been through
you'd be the first person I'd tell
but you're out of my life now
i guess it's just as well