PrettyBoy | Wolfstar

Part 11

TW: mental health stuff, ED, SH, suicide, addiction, stuff like that.
The next morning, Remus woke up to Sirius playing with his hair and looking at him with a small smile.
"Hey baby. How'd you sleep?" Sirius asked the yawning boy.
"I slept okay." Remus replied looking slightly upset.
"Are you alright?" Sirius asked in a concerned tone.
"I'm fine." Remus replied tiredly.
"I'm sorry." Sirius said in a guilty tone kissing Remus' forehead softly, "I'll be more gentle with you next time."
"It's alright. I'm just not feeling great." Remus replied messing with Sirius' long hair.
"Why is that?" Sirius asked, wanting to make him feel better.
"Dunno. I might be having a depressive episode." Remus replied rubbing his shoulder.
"Is there anything I need to know about that? Like how to keep you healthy." Sirius asked wanting to keep his boyfriend safe.
"Can we sit up? Then I'll tell you everything you might need to worry about." Remus asked trying to not get to nervous about the information he was about to tell Sirius.
They both sat up and and Sirius held one of Remus' hands.
"I have a history with anorexia, like not eating for large amounts of time, self harm, hence the scars on my face and arms, and also a generally addictive personality. I'll start smoking a lot more than I already do or pick up alchol. And the last one, can I have a second?" Remus asked, getting worked up.
"Yeah take your time." Sirius replied being supportive.
"I have suicidal tendencies. I have tried to kill myself three times since I was twelve. I have been sent to every therapist in London, and a psychiatric ward four times for suicide, self harm, and addiction." Remus said shaking from being nervous of Sirius' response.
He looked up to Sirius' face to see that he was crying.
"No. Love don't cry." Remus said squeezing Sirius' hand.
"I'm so sorry Remus. I'm so sorry you have to go through that." Sirius said in his low, gravelly voice, kissing his hand.
"Please don't put pressure on yourself to try and make my life easier. I'll deal with it." Remus said not wanting to bother Sirius.
"Remus, I do not understand fully what you have went through. But I can tell you that I have struggled with drug and alcohol abuse. I will do whatever it takes to make your life easier. You are such a beautiful person and you have went through hell for long enough." Sirius replied seriously.
Remus was crying at this point at what Sirius had just said to him.
"Thank you Siri. You're to good to me." Remus said hugging Sirius, while Sirius ran his fingers through Remus' hair.

After both Remus and Sirius had gotten dressed they went down to breakfast, sitting down across from James and Peter.
"Ouch!" Remus exclaimed as he sat down on the bench next to Sirius, being sore from the previous night.
"Are you okay?" James asked as he heard discomfort in Remus' voice.
"Yeah I'm fine." Remus replied softly with a look of embarrassment on his face.

Sirius, Peter, and Sirius talked while Remus sat with his head in his knees.
"Remus, have you ate anything?" Sirius asked, Remus shook his head no in response.
"Eat something small. Like a piece of toast. Can you do that?" Sirius asked giving Remus a piece of toast, and he took a small bite out of it.
"Good boy." Sirius praised his boyfriend, stroking his hair.
"Is he alright?" Peter asked with a confused look on his face.
"Can I tell him?" Sirius asked Remus and he nodded in response.
"Remus is trying to recover from an eating disorder, so I'm just making sure he stays healthy." Sirius said scratching the back of his head.
Peter, James, and Lily all became very sympathetic of Remus, something that surprised Remus, as he had never been cared about like that.

Remus and Sirius went outside to talk and try to clear Remus' mind.

"Are you alright love? You were really quiet at breakfast." Sirius asked as they sat down under their usual tree.
"I'm fine. Just sad." Remus replied leaning against Sirius' chest.
"I'm sorry Remy." Sirius said rubbing Remus' arm.
"It's okay." Remus replied in a tired voice.
"I have something that might make you happy. James said that if we wanted we could go to his house for the holidays since I live there outside of school. I know that you're Jewish and they celebrate Christmas but I thought you might prefer to go there." Sirius said playing with his hair, "would you like that?"
"Really? Yeah I'd enjoy that." Remus replied sounding slightly less upset.
"James' parents are very sweet and I think you'd like them. They were there for me when my parents never were." Sirius added kissing Remus' forehead.

"What's up guys?" James asked walking over to the two.
"Not much. Just enjoying the day." Sirius replied while Remus stayed silent, "I told Remus that you invited us over for the holidays."
"Are you gonna come over?" James asked enthusiastically.
"Yeah. Remus is Jewish but he said he'd be happy to go." Sirius explained.
"If he wants I could ask my mum to research some traditions if it makes him more comfortable." James replied kindly.
"I really appreciate it but please don't bother. I don't wanna cause trouble." Remus said not wanting to bother anyone.
"It's really no trouble at all. I want you to feel at home." James reassured him, "would you like that Remus?" Remus nodded in response.
"I think we're gonna go back to the dorm so Remus can lay down." Sirius said picking Remus up and walking into the castle.

Once they got into the dorm Sirius sat down on the bed with Remus.
"I'm sorry you're sad." Sirius said rubbing Remus' cheek.
"It's not your fault my brain is bad." Remus replied with a small smile.
"I wish I could fix it though." Sirius said looking down at the boy laying in his lap, "do you wanna take a nap?"
"I'd like that." Remus replied with a smile.
Sirius laid down and Remus laid on top of him with his head on his chest and the two fell asleep.

------------------Author's note--------------------
The next chapters gonna be a time skip to when they leave to go on holiday.

xx, Tate.