𝓨𝓸𝓾'𝓻𝓮 𝓜𝓲𝓷𝓮 - 𝓗𝓸𝓼𝓲𝓮

21

I could feel emotions clouding my heart and brain. But the only one I could focus on was love, love for Hope, love for Lizzie, love. It was- however, hard to focus on my love for the girl infront of me when I could hear awkward conversing between my mom and her... ex? I'm still unsure of the natures of their relationship.

After Hope and I had pulled away from the kiss I immediatley dragged her into a hug, I burried my head into the crook of her neck and said, "can we get out of here? I can't stand hearing their conversation." Reffering to our parents whose conversation had moved from awkward to kind of flirtatious which was even worse listening to. Hope let out a small laugh and nodded before grabbing my hand and walking toward the cell door.

As the door opened our parents jumped apart, they were now standing unnaturally far apart for two people having a conversation.

"H-hey hon, how are you feeling?" My mom asks as she awkwardly moves her hand over her cheeks trying to cover their slight pink tone.

"I'm fine mom," I say, smiling reasuringly.

"Are you sure? I know turning on your humanity again can be hard," my mom continues.

"Yes, I'm fine mom," I chuckle. "Go back to flirting with my girlfriends dad or something," I say teasingly as I walk away with Hope's hand in mine.

"I wasn-" she begins but gives up mid-sentence. We walk up the stairs and I immediately see Lizzie sitting on a couch bouncing her leg nervously.

"Lizzie!" I yell as I run over toward her with my eyes glossy from tears.

"Jo?! Is that you?" She asks as I sit down next to her, I nodd and she grabs my face, wiping away the fallen tears before pulling me into a hug.

"Liz- I'm so so sorry, I-" I beging but she interrupts me.

"Shh, I know Jo, It's okay, I love you." She says.

"I love you too," I say as I shut my eyes, continuing to hug her. When we pulled away from the hug we were met by the eyes of our parents who were standing by eachother with teary eyes and our dads arms on our moms shoulder. The look on their faces showed pride, pride in how they had raised two daughters that loved eachother so much.

In reality Lizzie and I believe we made eachother the way we both are since our parents weren't too present as we were growing up, but having pride in your prodigies is not something a parent who loves their children should be denied, which is why we never said that to them.

After pulling away from the hug I held Lizzie's hand in mine giving her a pure smile as she wiped a tear from my eye, cupping my cheek and brushing against it lovingly. I stroke the back of her hand as I speak up.

"So, I'm gonna take a shower, THEN I need to know what the fuck is happening," I say reffering to Hayley being alive and triad, which everyone understood. I let go of Lizzie's hand before standing up and looking at Hope, she smiled at me before walking toward the table where her family was sitting, I smiled at the sight of Hope being surrounded by her family, who she loves and had missed so dearly.

I begin walking up the stairs toward the bathroom which is connected to Hope's bedroom. I walk into the bathroom and I turn on the shower while I get undressed, I look up and I see fog covering the mirror above the sink. I drag my finger against the mirror glass in the shape of a heart, I smile at the picture before getting into the shower.

The warm water runs on my skin as I slick my wet hair backwards. That's when it hit me. Guilt. I shut my eyes and think back the Dana's lifeless body before me, Lizzie's teary eyes filled with sorrow and betreyal. I exhale shakily trying to shake the images, but I can't. I had killed someone. I feel my legs weaken at the unbearable amount of guilt clouding my thoughts.

I open my eyes, attempting to stop these vicious images flodding my brain. My breath grows heavier and quicker and my legs get weaker and weaker intil I start to feel dizzy. With my face drenched from shower water and tears I start losing my balance, desperately trying to keep standing, but I fail. I trip out of the shower and hold onto the sink nefore sitting down on the floor, gasping for air as I sob into my hands.

The door flies open.

"Jo? Jo!" It's Hope she grabs a towel, wrapping it around me before plopping down next to me on the bathroom floor. She grabs each side of my face with her warm hands and lifts my face making me look into her eyes. She moves one of her hands to my upper back and the other to the back of my head, pulling me into a hug.

"What's wrong my love? hm?" She whispers into my ear as she strokes the back of my head. I breathe deeply and try to calm myself down.

"I-I'm a monster- I just killed her-" I stutter in between my deep panic full breaths.

"Shh, shh," she soothes me as she grabs the sides of my face and pulls me up to look her in my eyes. "Jo listen to me- you are not a monster, okay? You are the most amazing person I've ever met, do you understand?" She continues as my lip begins to tremble before letting out a loud sob and allowing my head to fall back onto Hope's chest.

"I love you, so much" I say as I cry silently into her chest.

"I love you more," Hope says as she strokes my hair until I'm calmed down.

A/N: Trying to update more, hopefully my motivation will come back.