°Toxic° (DreamSMP angst)

part 12 !!

a/n

I am slowly going insane, writing this is not helping so that's an update on me
ON WITH LE STORY!!

TW
tommy calls himself names
panic attacks
abuse?

tommy pov

I didn't want to choose.

I couldn't choose between.. that.. those two options. I can't and I don't want to.
I remember when Niki used to talk to me so excitedly.
I remember her face lighting up anytime I walked in the room.

Wilbur never looked happy to see me, hell, he didn't even care if or when I left.

The paper. right.
She wrote it before the election and specified every single detail.
There's no way she's lying.

I looked at Tubbo, he clearly just wanted to leave.

I looked at wilbur. He doesn't look at me hopefully that I'd lie for him, he's looking at me in a way that means 'i know you will lie for me' he's sure. He's confident that I'm that stupid, that I don't see what he's been doing.

He'll be sorry.

"she's telling the truth." I said, confidently, truthfully and looking directly at Wilbur.

He looked as he was shot in heart.
As if someone took out a knife and stabbed him.

"Tommy?! I thought we were together on this??!" Wilbur shouted.
I think we both tuned out the rest of the room.

"I am done with you."

Wilbur ran away, not wanting to get arrested or get in trouble.

i just watched.

I looked over at Niki, wanting her to be proud of me.

but i only saw sadness in her eyes.

"he's gone off the rails.."
She looked like she was gonna cry.

"Niki I'm sorry i ever.. I'm sorry i didn't - I'm sorry i didn't believe you."

i just wanted Wilbur's approval so badly..

"whatever."
fuck. i hurt her.

i just walked away without another word, scared to make everything worse.
i always make things worse. i talk too much.
at least thats what wilbur says.
i mess everything up.
I'm stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid-

without realizing it, I'm on the ground crying.
i can't breathe correctly.
it's too much.
but I've walked too far away for anyone to see me.
maybe it's better this way, i deserve this.

no one's pov

There Tommy was, all alone, crying on the ground.
after what seemed like a long time, he calmed down a bit.
He was thinking about what happened.

What did Wilbur do?

at that thought, Tommy heard footsteps behind him.
it was probably Niki to help him calm down! he thought.

He turned around, relived that Niki was there but, when he turned around he was greeted with a punch to the face.
But not by Niki, by Wilbur soot, looking very angry.

"you mother fucker. you think YOU CAN GET AWAY WITH THIS?"

red, thick, hot blood is running down Tommy's face.

"i-im sorry!" tommy says while coughing up some blood.

wilbur seems to have snapped out of it.

"oh god- I'm sorry tommy are you okay?" he seemed worried.

But he wasn't. he just wanted tommy to need him.

"it-its whatever.." Tommy sighed.

"you did betray me tommy. I'm not forgetting that."

"i don't regret it." Tommy spat.

Wilbur looked so fucking mad.

"AFTER ALL IVE DONE FOR YOU? AFTER I JUST APOLOGISED? god you're just an ungrateful little fucking child."

Another punch to Tommy's face.

Another punch from his 'brother'.

was it all lies? did Wilbur care about him?

Tommy blacked out after the 3rd punch.

Niki pov

i really don't know what just happened.

i need to get away from it all.

if not for me, then for the sake of Tommy.

i walk outside.
there are a lot of clouds.
i think it's gonna rain but i don't really care.
maybe the rain will be nice.

i walk without thinking and before i know it, I'm far far away from anyone, or so i thought.
because in the distance i see 2 figures, i think they're fighting?
i squint my eyes.
Blond hair, and the other one has brown hair.
Tommy-?
who's the othe- oh.

suddenly, i can't feel anything anymore.
i don't care about anything except for Tommy.
i run, no, i sprint towards the figures.

i was right.
it is tommy and Wilbur.

Tommy's knocked out.

i don't think Wilbur cares though.

"hey!! cut it out!" i scream.

Wilbur turns around, i expect him to be smiling, a maniacal smile, but he's not.
he's destressed.
he's looking at his hands which are full of blood.

I'm about 5 feet away from Wilbur now, he's shaking.

"Niki- i need- i need help. I'm not okay. I'm crazy. i don't- I'm not real anymore. nothing matters what i do because i can just reset time. i don't- i want you to help me. please. please help me-"
he's crying now.

i run over to tommy first.
"tommy? hello?"
he wakes up.

"huh-" he looks at me, he looks at wilbur and then at the ground.
then back at wilbur and then he starts crying.

great, now i have 2 crying men to deal with.
i rub circles on Tommy's back while telling both boys it's gonna be okay.
but truthfully, i don't know if it is.
Wilbur is probably going to be put in jail or a mental hospital.

i can't let him get away though. he needs help.

no one's pov

time goes by, the guys and Niki go back to the main land.

Niki was wrong, it never started raining.