What If I'm Happy Here? (Shawn Mendes)

3.

We talked in the messy room we had been in earlier. It was Nash and Matt's. Which I assumed after watching them make a complete mess of Shawn's room. Carter and Matt made a few vines together, making quite a lot of noise, but other than that everyone was pretty chill. I could tell people were a bit tired from their flights.

Cam and I spent most of the time talking about what our lives were like. I was so intrigued by MAGCON and how they were going to make such a hectic event run so smoothly. He talked me through what a day on tour would be like.

"I can't wait to go on tour!" I said excitingly to Cam

His face fell "You haven't been on tour yet? Why?"

"I've only got one song." I laughed, "I can't."

"Shawn's on tour," Cam said, "he's got no songs."

"Shawn's hot!" Cam whipped his face towards me. "You all are, that's why you're famous." I just rolled my eyes.

I could tell he didn't appreciate my comment on Shawn's looks. I didn't mean it as I'm attracted to Shawn; I meant it as Shawn can go on tour because of his looks. I don't think he took anything too seriously, though. He knew exactly what I meant. People are completely infatuated with them. Their comments are filled with young pre-teen girls who want to be their girlfriends.

Cam needed to edit the video so he excused himself shortly after our conversation dwindled out. After that, One by one everyone started to make their way back to their rooms. I started to get my things ready so I could head out. I gave Matt and Nash a quick hug and thanked them for letting me film and I waved goodbye to the few who were left in the room. Before I head out tho, I wanted to say goodbye to Cam. I went down the hall to the room I felt confident was his. I knocked on the door and, sure enough, he came out.

"I'm heading out, just wanted to come by and say thank you for today," I said

Cam fumbled with his words slightly, then answered. "Yeah! Of course! Today was... was fun."

I nodded my head, smiled, and started to turn away.

"Wait." I hear. "You should stay."

Huh? I gave him a confused look.

"Not for long or anything, just a little bit longer. You can keep me company while I edit."

I wanted to stay with Cam so bad, but I knew that if I was here too late, I would get too tired to drive home. And if I didn't go home, I would be with Cam all night. I know the reputation these boys have. I know what would happen if I stayed. So I made the smart decision to say,

"I wish, but I should really go."

"Okay, yeah, cool, no problem." Cam went on, "But why don't you swing by tomorrow, it'll be fun to see you again."

I agreed and went on my way back to my small apartment complex, with my own bed and only me sleeping in it. I think being with a MAGCON boy is the last thing I need in my life right now. I'm not very good with hookups. Even though I like to tell myself I can do it, I find that I become way too attached to them. And Cameron Dallas, you are someone I might never be able to get over. It was his lips and his smile. His eyes and his hair. It was the way he laughed and the way he spoke. Something about everything about him made my entire body shake... and he could tell. Inviting me to stay wasn't a little thing, he knew where he wanted to go with it.