What If I'm Happy Here? (Shawn Mendes)

5.

It was day one of MAGCON so Cam and I had to go downstairs to the dining hall where a meal was provided for the boys. I told him that it would be best if I just left, but he said I couldn't miss the first show. I wanted to talk to Cam about what happened, but I also didn't wanna come across as this younger girl who couldn't handle it. Like I said before, I know these types of guys. I know their reputation. 

"I like having you around," Cam said to me abruptly. 

"I would hope so," I flashed him a grin. 

"Well, I was thinking that you need to hang out around all the time. Establish a spot here. Maybe even perform with us" He gave me a side eye while stuffing a muffin into his mouth. 

I just let out a laugh. I wasn't going to be a part of MAGCON in that way. First of all, Joe wouldn't want me stooping low for this tour. Second, I didn't wanna be stooping low for this tour. It just wasn't what I wanted my music to become. My song had really been creeping up on the charts and I know the exposure would be good, but then I'd be losing a whole nother audience. 

Of course, I had to explain that, more nicely, to Cam. And he understood and said, "ay, it was worth a shot." 

It meant a lot to me that he wanted me to be a part of this though. And I would love to. I thought about going from city to city with the boys. It would be good for me and I could go onto various radio stations while working on the album. I think that it will take some convincing, but Joe would be down for it. 

"Ayyyyyyyyy!" I felt two hands on my shoulders and saw two go on Cams too. I follow the hands up to the head. I could have guessed that it was Nash and Matt because I wasn't close with the other boys... yet. 

"You two love birds on a little breaky date?" Matt asked, eying both of us. 

I blush and look at Cam. He was too. He shook his head quickly once our eyes met and I let out a little giggle. It didn't hurt me that he so swiftly denied it because I know he wanted to take me out... or just make out again. And I liked Cam, I really did. And he liked me too.

"Did you guys know that we're going to 6 flags on Monday?" Nash asked smiling so wide. 

"Wait. That's so fun." Cam says, then looks to me, "you have to come." 

"That sounds cool. I want to, but I'll have to talk to Joe." 

"Don't even ask, just tell him," Cam says 

"Noo." I laugh 

"He's your manager, not your Dad." 

"Shush. I'll ask" 

"You'll beg?" 

Cam smirked at me and hearing those words like that made me sweat a little. I shyly nod to him. God, he really is gonna kill me. 

Once we finished breakfast, we headed upstairs to meet with the rest of the group. When we walked through the door, I didn't recognize two faces. A boy with brown hair, who honestly resembled the rest of them. And a girl with red curly hair. Yes, another girl! I haven't really made aton of friends since I had been in Dallas and I figured a girl friend I could gossip with is just what I needed. 

Cam must of saw me looking at them and said, "Oh that's Mahogony and Jacob. Jacob sings and Mahogany is a DJ" 

This filled me with literally so much joy, you have no idea. Two artists. I really thought that Shawn and I could have connected, but he was ended up being kinda a dick. I'm hopeful that we can be friends. I smiled at them and introduced myself. 

"Girl," Mahogany says, "No need for introductions, we know who you are." 

I laughed and thanked her awkwardly. I don't think that was the right thing to do, but oh well. 

We just hung out for the night in the room. I sat by Mahogany and Jacob and we chatted about music the whole time. I've found my people. Taylor was making some of the most annoying vines, but honestly they were funny. I saw Cam eying me whenever I talked to another boy or laughed at one of their jokes. But he isn't allowed to deny our little breaky date and then be all possessive of me. 

I went home that night really researching who each person was. Maybe it was a little stalkerish of me. But I think I really like everyone. They're funny, they have such good personalities. And yes, I even did my research on Shawn, who seems a little happier when he's back in him home town with his friends.