Worthless (In Editing)

Chapter One

Hey! I hope this fanfic gets more noticed then my other ones...please spread dah word!!! Well here goes nothing!

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*Lexi's POV*

I hate my life. I hate America. I hate everything.

Except for this girl, who lives in London and is like completely worth staying alive. Her name is Alicia.

I cut myself. Once you do it, it really doesn't hurt the other times, or at least to me it doesn't.

My parents are drugged maniacs so I live with a shitty foster family, who by the way abuses me! They already have a bitch excuse of a daughter, not to mention they can't stop slapping and beating me for doing nothing.

I have brown hair that I bleach but since I've been 'misbehaving' I can't have it done anymore. I have bluish-green eyes. I have a belly button, nose, and tongue piecing...which I also have to give up because of how I act.

Do you see now why my life is not worth living?

"Get your ass down here right this instant, Lexi Jane Carter!" I cringe at my foster 'mother's' voice. Her name was Delvin and she sure in hell was a devil!

I rushed down the stairs and tried not to slip, but like always I failed. Delvin sees I've fallen and instead of being a nice mother...she slaps my cheek and knees me in the gut.

"Stop messing around!"

I clutch my face and gut. I struggle to stand but in matters of beating or death, I stood. Seriously if I would've layed there I would've been gone in 3 seconds.

Delvin leads me to Katherine(bitch daughter) and tells me to fix Katherine's food.

"I want 2 slices of turkey with a layer of mayo and don't forget the Cleasando(A/N: Fake brand) cheese"

I grab all the ingredients and make her sandwich trying my hardest not to miss a thing.

"H-here you go" I stutter hoping she wouldn't hit me for any mistakes.

"Don't stutter!" She slaps my cheek. Ouch I'm going to have a scab from her fake nails digging into my flesh.

I nod my head and walk fast back up the stairs and go into the attic, which was my room. I go over to my drawers and pull out a razor.

This time is going to be my last. As in I want to die from this one...no more Katherine, Delvin, or Chavel (Delvin's wife). Ha I'm going to love that.

Right before I moved the razor to it position, my phone beeped. (The only good thing about foster homes is that the family before this one gave me an iPhone before they were killed and now the parent's mother promised to pay for it as long as she could.) I checked it and saw it was Alicia wanting to FaceTime. I answered it. I still had the razor to my wrist.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?? Put it down right this instant lex! I swear if you ever so let that razor touch your beautiful skin I will hang myself!" She had the most serious face in her life. She was never serious.

She was the only person that made me feel loved. I couldn't do this to her. She loved me for me and didnt care that I was a cutter, well except the part that I cutted...she wanted me to stop.

I put the razor down. And tears started to prickle up.

"Tell your Ali-Bear what happened this time" She showed me the most genuine smile.

I couldn't help but smile back.

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*Slowly going through and editing*

I apologize for the lack of effort & quality in this chapter, please stick along. Trust me, it gets 10x better(:

•Love all of you•

Yours Truly,

Christina S.