Worthless (In Editing)

Chap 12

It told me to add text...added! Boom! Okay this chappie will have drama! I'm going to write..okay?

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*Liam's POV*

I've just been thinking about Dani...did she really mean that text.

What does "I still care about u" even mean? I still love you? I still want to be your friend? I'm dying inside? I DONT KNOW! And it's killing me. I can't just ask her, it would be awkward. She would just say never mind, and act like nothing ever happened, like she never sent that text. I know her and that would happen...maybe I need to go to Eleanor.

To: Elle

From: Lili

"Hey what's does I still care mean?"

"Whatcha doing?" Lex and her beautiful voice. I could listen to it all day.

"Textin' Elle" she seemed to understand who Elle is...I guess she really is a Directioner.

To: Lili

From: Elle

"Well who is it by? It can mean alot of things..."

I scrunch up my nose in ignorance of her reply. Seriously!?! There can't just be a simple but effective answer? Lexi looked over at me and I noticed she was starting to get worried. Her eyebrows furrowed and she was trying to figure out what I was so uncertain about. I guess i should tell her sooner or later..I'm going to chose sooner.

"Hey Lex?"

"Yeah" She instantly smiled. It's love...pure love. I hope.

*Lexi's POV*

Liam was so...deep in thought.

Should I ask him what's wrong? No. I don't want to sound possessive. Maybe ill wait and see if he opens up.

"Hey Lex?" OH! He might open up! Lets hope for it!

"Yeah?" I have so much anxiety.

He starts to say "I have something to say" but he gets cut off by a phone call.

He says he has to take it and leaves the room for me to ponder a bit. I wonder who was calling him? Was it Elle? Management? One of the lads? Or was it.....Danielle! I don't want to sound jealous but she is every reason for me to think Liam thinks I'm nothing. I know I just met him and I don't want to be judged but I really feel for him..in that odd sort of way when you think you got an answer right on a test so you feel all giddy inside. I want to be loved. Actually loved. More than just Alicia, I mean yeah she is my family and friend but since her I really can't open up to anyone. It was because of my past.

-Flashback-

I was 5. My parents went to go get something but I really didnt care. They weren't druggies to my knowledge so I didn't pay attention to them. I was more interested in my one of a kind rag-doll. It was torn up and had a missing eye but other than that she was terrible...when your 5 it doesn't matter, like at least I had something.

I was sitting in our small living room filled with only a love seat and a old black and white antenna tv. The carpet was supposed to be white but it was a dark tan. The love seat was all broken and ripped here and there.

Then my parents walked in. They had a couple of brown bags. I wonder what's in there. Maybe a new doll! Oh I hope so much there is a new doll. That would make my year. Except it wasn't a doll. It was a white powder. My parents started sniffing it in the kitchen. Why were they coughing? Was it medicine...I wonder if it bubblegum flavored!

After they finished my dads friend came over. My mum already left to go clubbing..I never knew what that was! It always angered me. My dad was in the loo. I have no idea why either. So I was stuck in the living room with daddy's friend.

But not for long. He dragged me to the back room where nothing was at and locked the door behind us. I'm scared

"Honey, if you scream it won't make it easier. Okay?" I nod with absolute fear.

He unzips his trousers pulling them down and I now have a view of his boxers, they were black. He comes to me and grabs my arm.

"Do you trust me?" I quickly nod knowing the consequences of not doing so.

"All people are like me" He pulls off my shirt and bits his lip. His lips were right next to my ear and if I were older I could indicate he was drunken.

He shoves me onto the ground causing my to wince in pain. He liked my pain. He slowly unbuttoned my pants and slide them down revealing my cupcake undies. He takes his teeth and pulls my underwear down making my spine shiver when his breath flows into me. I'm completely vulnerable right now and he takes that to advance.

All I remember after that was being raped and blood flowing everywhere.

All people were like this. All people.

-End of Flashback-

I jolt forward from my flashback. I see I was in a different room. Where was I? It seemed so unrecognizable. The neatness.

"Oh thank goodness your awake" it was Liam. I'm guessing I'm in Liam's room. It was morning as well.

"I have something to say." He seemed so devastated.

"Yes?" I'm trembling from all this anxiety.

"I have to break up with you. Trust me it's not you"

Everyone is like him. Whenever I end up loving someone, they leave. Lexi, this always happens. Just go back to your razor, it never left you.

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I'm trying to write better!

I SPENT LIKE 4 hours on this! PLEASE SPREAD DAH WORD! IM BEGGING YOU!

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