A Cursed Love

bcz iam a monster .

Rudra is given the previlage to stay inside the house for the night  but he felt so better in that cowshed than in this room   ..

" What r they playing with me ? Panditji n Santa r clearly showing me worst days of my life , I understand their concept they want to get rid of me .. but what is sati upto   she  is caring one sec , next sec  trying to make me go  n another sec lieing  about her n arjun , y didn't she react when I said about arjun   🤔 does she know about it already   if  she know then y this wedding   , she was happy to marry me n suddenly changed after she came here  , how did  they say to make sati agree to this wedding  " rudra is  trying to figure out what this family actually planned for him

Satis behaviour is very suspicious ..she is behaving too odd to believe   her

Rudra is thinking about various possibilities ...n the taunts he was given r again n again haunting him

"  Just 4 days I have to do anything to keep my family with me  ...n this wierd girl  n that rascal arjuns affair  n this family ..their verbal torture ...god how can they just   without any humanity " rudra closed his eyes in disgust remembering how they insulted him

" After ur past deeds u expect humanity for urself  " came the annoying self s voice

" Not u now ...just get lost " he cursed his self who just laughed evily

" Y u feel so digusted at their words , what wrong they r saying ...do u deny being a rapist  , it's natural  for any woman to feel unsafe around u  , u have to live with this tag all ur life now   " self made him more guilty

Rudra had nothing to argue he accepted this reality long back ... When he is at fault what he can say to defend himself  

" I know .. I did  a big sin , I truely regret it , I will accept any punishment  I just want my family  ... I don't want anything more "  rudra said looking at the sky ..

" U r still being selfish ,    u r still thinking about ur happiness ur wants , what about others  what about sati  " his self said a sensible line

Rudra    denied " sati want to b with me too , I can give her everthing she wants , I'm may b selfish bcz I want my son to have a complete family " rudra said his thoughts ...

Self huffed " u want a family for ur own son ,but u never thought about someons daughters will  n consent ...u know what I'm talking about rudra umapati  u r manipulating her from the sec u came back in her life , u were taking advantage of  her mentality  , u know well how  girls in such narrow minded families r groomed ,  n a stupid girl she is she  searched  that little good in u n blindly started to love u ,  u ask her to forgive u again n again  if Meera is in satis place will u let her forgive her rapist n blindly go with him   u won't , u such bias for u n others rudra .. justice is equal for all  right , stop this planning plotting  atleast now  n go n say sati the remaining truth u r hiding about  ur marriage certificate  let her decide  what she wants ....if she wants this wedding then let her go  it's her life she have right to choose , u will still have ur son for u  , if sati is happy with arjun u should not  disturb her anymore  ...love is selfless ur lovers happiness n wellbeing must b ur first priority  it doesn't matter they r with u r not  ........ " Rudra s innerself is guiding him towards a right path ...

Everyone of us will have both good n bad selfs in us .. they often suggest us what we should do .. it's our choice either we take good path r follow bad path ... Choosing bad path is easy bcz it's  simple , tempting  n very hard to resist  gives quick results  which r never permanent , even though it  will pain us will take time   needs hardwork n struggle ..good path will always b the best path  especially to people  like rudra who already did many worst things in past  ...