new found sentiments (post-game drv3)[saioumatsu]

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Saihara pov(as always)
I looked over at angie, with eyes widened i... Didnt know what to think that one girl who was always happy and smiling...turned into this
i dont know what to do.
maybe i should mind my own buisness theres nothing i can do for her anyways, im not that person youd ask for help or give you confidenceimjustusele-
"no" i said clearly as i cut my thoughts off
I need to help her
"we are all happy you are here, yonaga-san so please dont think that way.
Sure you, tenko and himiko havent been in the best terms, however im sure they'll get over it"
Angie looked at me as her eyes began to water
"b-but i manipulated everyone and i forced them to join my cult and i have not been an angelic person and now god probably hates me" she hyperventilates as i try to calm her down "its okay yonaga san, everyone makes mistakes, adding the fact you were right the whole time, if we listened to you, no murders would have happened and even breaking the flashback light was the right option" i chuckle nervously
"you only did what you thought was right and we appreciate that"
Angie's tears whom were emerging from her eyes were rolling down through her cheeks leaving transparent paths
"thank you, saihara, you are right " she said as she gave her signature laugh, just that it was a bit quieter and came off more like a chuckle.
I smiled not that widely as I saw her talking to me, I didn't pay that much attention, I was just glad the old and bright Angie was back

Time skip
We were all at cafeteria when a doctor came in and announced that we will be soon receiving our phones, from before the game, but we were given an option to have a new phones just in case since we were told our pregames had personalities that were...repugnant
Of course we could Change options if we wanted so I chose my pregame phone, to later get a. New one
I started scrolling a bit until I found some pictures of me and someone else, a female with long lilac hair and sharp upturned eyes, another one, but she had long blue hair and round oceanic eyes, she slightly looked like me...weird I kept scrolling until I found it...

I found out my phone was filled with anything that had to do with danganronpa

It was horrible I had all the executions downloaded all the death in pictures a thousand of Monokuma photos
But most importantly
I saw a document file where it had my execution explained, it was extremely specific and gruesome I felt like throwing up, it even had images. Good thing they were poorly drawn but it was still enough for me to throw the phone to cover my mouth up and shed some tears I was sobbing until some people approach me to see if I was okay, like Kaito or Kaede as well as Angie and even himiko
I ran away, still crying, the gore in that document was too much for me to handle, slowly my vision started blurring and I was loosing balance until I collapsed in the floor

"Mornin sleepyhead~"

I opened my eyes slowly to see Ouma on top of me
"O-OUMA!?"
I shouted  tears emerging from my eyes
"I-I thought" I couldn't even speak, voice was cracked and still, I hugged him tightly as not wanting to loose him again
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry im sorry im sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry " I kept repeating, still holding tightly the small, fragile figure
I kneeled down and buried my face into his chest and cried, but I was caught off guard when I felt his fingers playing with my hair
"It's okay Saihara" he said in a soft voice
I looked up to his face 
"Please don't miss me too much" he said until everything went pitch black again

"Saihara kun?"
A very modest and refined voice called my
name I opened my eyes slowly, a bit stunned fue to the light
"Tojo-San?" I said in a lazy voice
"W-what happened"
"Gokuhara-kun brought you here, he said he found you fainted" she explained
"O-oh" I said forgetting of my dream or at least what I think it is
She accompanied me to the dining hall where everyone was
We were eating quietly until Kaito talked "hey everyone how about making a group chat?" He spoke-shouted. The first person to respond was Kaede who scribbled down her board then showed it to everyone
"I think it's a great idea :D what do you think guys?"
"I agree" I muttered quietly but still loud enough for everyone to hear "I have a few questions about it but no furthermore I think it is indeed a good idea" Kirumi stated
"GONTA AGREE WITH KIRUMI SAN" said gonta seeming pretty joyful
Everyone agreed which was good

Later that day we were discussing some things about the group chat and we decided that the person in charge of the names should be yonaga since she is the most creative person? Plus she's been awfully quiet and needs to open up more. We also decided that it would be better to use nicknames since they say that it helps people bond more
Kinda like how Kaito calls maki and I sidekicks and sometimes calls her maki-roll
Talking about that I think Kaito is in love with maki and I'm pretty sure maki feels the same.
I should probably text Kaede about that
I hear the sound of a notification on my phone

-you have been added to a group chat called "the void"-
I chuckle slightly at the name I knew it was a good idea to leave it to Angie
I entered the group chat to see which names she came up with
꧁SpaceObsessed꧂: why yonaga :((

☠︎︎DoYouWannaDie☠︎︎: quit whining. Its annoying

☠︎︎DoYouWannaDie☠︎:

☠︎︎DoYouWannaDie☠︎: do you wanna die?

PianoIsLife♡︎: please no killing ><;

☠︎︎DoYouWannaDie☠︎: your not telling me what to do

꧁SpaceObsessed꧂: maki roll please dont

☠︎︎DoYouWannaDie☠︎: but-

꧁SpaceObsessed꧂: please

☠︎︎DoYouWannaDie☠︎: fine

I turn off my phone for a bit as I took a piece of paper and a pen and wrote down

"Operation kaimaki"