To be Human

New beginnings

I often wondered what exactly we as humans saw in the concept of love. I watch people fall in and out of love and question their sanity. We crave a sense of belonging and affection and yet we fail to see that this very embodiment of love that we have created is beyond selfish and deceiving, It pulls us in with a promise of feelings we can only imagine and hope for and then destroys us. I have seen this so-called love change people, some for the better but mostly for the worst, and as much as I would love to believe in this poorly veiled illusion I cannot bring myself to. Is this the version of love we have created? Have we tainted the pureness of actual love? or is this what Actual love is? These are the thoughts that run rampant in my mind and while it is draining to think about, it is questions that my life has led me to ask. I'm Rhai Summers, I lost my mom to drug abuse, My dad committed suicide because he loved her so much and couldn't stand the thought of living without her. I was put into foster care at the age of 10 but ran away due to the ill-treatment I was subjected to.

I'm now 19 and I live in Lavria right off the coast in a small apartment with barely enough space to stretch my damn legs but it's what I can afford. The Landlord is the most narcissistic asshole I've ever met and I am this close to putting a bullet through his fucking head.

"Rhaiiiiiiiiiii", I was so busy thinking about castrating that damn fool I didn't hear my door being banged on by someone. "Yooooo I'm coming, stop trying to break my shit down" I yell to whoever is knocking. I swing the door open to see none other than my homegirl Cameron with a Cheshire cat grin on her face, "Took you long enough bitch, almost died of old age waiting for you to open that damn door" she says walking in like she owned the place. "Why you always so extra C it wasn't even that long", I say smiling at her even though I wanted to act piss but she always manages to cheer me up, she's honestly the rainbow to my storm. "It was though", she laughs still holding that grin in place. "What got you so smiley, you look like you just got your pussy ate or something," I say throwing something at her cause she was starting to freak me out. "I got in" I heard what she said but I couldn't get my words out " You lying bruh say ong" I cheese, "I'm being for real I got into NSU" ( North Sullivan University) she says while flaying her arms like a fool " YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS" I scream at the top of my lungs I was so happy cause I lowkey thought I would have to go through university without my best friend by my side."When did you get the acceptance letter," I ask while trying to contain the excitement bubbling inside me, I felt about ready to just burst.

 This may seem small but struggling with SAD, depression, PTSD, and Residual Schizophrenia I need her to keep me at bay. I didn't know how to pick a damn struggle. "I got it in the mail last night," She says while going into a random handstand, Cameron is a very hyper person, she can't stay still for shit and so I've grown used to her going into random positions and putting her body in weird formations.

"I'm so happy you got in C, I was honestly starting to worry that I would have to do the whole uni shit by myself" I express to her. "You know your bestie smart so why were you worried," she says jumping up and down like she pushing drugs. "I don't know about all that but ok I guess and will you sit down before you have a burn out" This girl has been doing all sorts of nonsense since she got into my damn apartment. "You know I can't help myself Rhai and I'm excited on top of it" I knew that if we stayed in my apartment she was gonna destroy the whole place or get me kicked out by that Fucktard I call my landlord and his saggy titty ran through wife."Bitch lets go before you get me kicked out, I wanna see the campus and take the tour today," I tell her while getting my things to leave, she says a quick ok and run to the door like she naruto, I can't help but laugh at her antics while following her. I feel an inkling of happiness blossoming in my heart but this is nothing new, C has always had this effect on me since the first day we met. I knew we were gonna be best friends from that day on and I hope we continue to be best friends because without her I'm just another lost soul in the expanse of the world.

what's popping party people, this is my first story on Wattpad so show your love by voting and dropping a comment, also lemme know what you think about the characters introduced so far. I'm gonna do the cast for the story so y'all have an idea of how each character looks, if you don't like the cast fret not thy self and use your imagination loves. Any constructive criticism is appreciated cause I can be an illiterate fool sometimes.

preciate y'all

MJ