Love is Pain

Heartbreaks

TW: Starvation, mentions of getting sick, talks about smoking and self-harm
December 5th
Veronica's POV

The next morning, we all woke up at around ten o'clock. We were all still really tired you could tell. I don't get why we decided to stay up so late. I now have a major headache. We all sat in silence so I'm pretty sure we all had headaches. We were all just on our phones being quiet.

After about half an hour, we started talking again. Mainly about when we were gonna leave. Nobody left until about noon. The first to leave was Cheryl. Toni, Betty, and I all just sat on our phones. Betty cuddled up to me up until she left leaving me and Toni together. We ended up just being stupid and bullying each other for fun. It was all fun though. 

"Hey, what should I get Betty for Christmas?" I asked her.

"I don't know. She's really hard to shop for. If you ask her what she wants she'll just tell you she doesn't know or not to get her anything," 

"I know what she would say. That's why I was asking you. So you could give me suggestions."

"You've known her longer than I have,"

"By like six months. Besides, you're her best friend. You should know."

"You're her girlfriend you should know,"

"Thanks, that's so much help. Anyway, I have to go. My parents are here." I said and left. 

***

I waited for her to text me. I didn't want to text her and be a bother. I was really convinced that I was going to annoy her. Which is weird because we texted all the time. Until about ten at night then she would call me. We did that every night. Even on school nights. Falling asleep on the phone with the person you care for the most is something different honestly. I'm surprised my parents never noticed or asked me anything about it.

She ended up texting me at around three. I got happy even though we texted all time but I guess that's just me. I get excited and happy over the little things.

Betty

B: Hey

V: Hey

B: What are you doing?

V: I'm just sitting in my room doing nothing as always

B: That's boring.

V: It is

B: So um I have something I want to tell you later.

V: Oh okay.

We continued texting for the rest of the day. But for the rest of the day, I had this really weird anxious feeling about what she had to tell me. I'm sure it's just me overthinking it. I definitely am overthinking. I overthink a lot of things and my overthinking always ends up being wrong. Especially with her. So I'm fine. But that doesn't mean I'm still not going to overthink it.

When she finally brought it up again it was eight-thirty. At this time I had completely forgotten that she had wanted to tell me something. 

Betty

B: So um back to what I wanted to tell you. I think we need to take a break. I'm just not doing so good mentally right now and I can't give you my full attention like I should be doing. I thought I could just wait it out and it would go away like it normally does but it didn't. But maybe we could try again in the future. I would like to think we could.