You Were Mine

Chapter 6

The next day, we watched the doctors as they place Xander in a bed with full of machines. I don't know what they're called but they're for his brain and muscles.

"Will he be okay?" Ate Kayla asked no one in particular.

"Of course. Mas malakas pa sa kalabaw si Kuya" Jasper kidded. Siya lang ang palaging cool sa'ming apat. Lahat kami either mainit ulo or tensed, sya lagi ang nagpapagaan ng mood.

I was pacing back and forth praying for him when the door opened. Lumabas ang doctor at inexplain ang condition ni Xander habang ang nurses naman ay tinutulungan syang ilipat sa wheelchair.

Nakita ko na nahihirapan sila through the window glass kaya naman tumakbo ako paloob sa kwarto. Hindi pa sya makalakad dahil nanigas na ang muscles nya. Exactly one year syang bedridden dahil sa aksidente.

"Let me help you" I said while assisting them.

"Get away from me. I don't even know you." He pushed my hand and the nurses bowed their heads. Nahihiya siguro sila for me.

"Xander naman. Please, let me help you. I promise you, you know me more than I know myself." He was confused about what I meant. I have no plans on leaving him, not until he asked about...

"Where's Yassi?" Boom. Ang sakit. Saan ba ako nagkamali? Siguro masama ako sa past life ko para bigyan ng gan'tong joke.

I can't help but to cry. Naitransfer naman na siya namin sa wheelchair kaya pwede na akong umalis. As long as he's okay, I'll be okay. Kakayanin.

Palabas na sana ako ng kwarto ng biglang pumasok sila Ate Clara. Nagulat sila dahil nakita nila akong naiiyak. Hindi ko na kasi napigilan, nakakahiya tuloy.

"Ate may emergency sa shop, I have to go. I'll be back later." I tried to smile but failed.

"Xander, ano nanaman ba sinabi mo kay Zynth?" Ate Clara asked him directly. Hinawakan ko ang kamay nya at pinigilan sya.

Xander was about to answer when she speak again. "Girlfriend mo si Zynth for 5 years and one year ka nyang binantayan dito sa hospital. Araw araw hanggang sa malugi na business nya. Niloko ka ng Yassi mo dati at si Zynth ang sumalo sa'yo kaya stop bitching here."

"This can't be. You're lying..." Di makapaniwalang sagot ni Xander. Magsasalita pa dapat uli si Ate Clara ng biglang sumigaw si Xander at napakapit sa kanyang ulo.

Nagulat kaming lahat at tinawag ni Jasper ang doctor. Pinahiga uli nila si Xander at chineck ang kaniyang ulo.

"What's happening here? Don't stress the patient. He may suffer from breakdown." The doctor said impatiently. Siguro naisip nya wala kaming consideration kasi puro eskandalo at stress lang ibinibigay namin.

Ininject-an nila ng sedative si Xander para makatulog kasi nagsimula syang magwala. Posible daw na pinipilit nyang alalahanin ang kaniyang memorya pero hindi magawa.

The doctor left us and let Xander's siblings to explain his condition to me. Sila naman ang nakarinig kanina habang tinutulungan ko si Xander kaya sila nalang daw ang mageexplain.

"His head was hit. Kaya siguro ikaw lang ang hindi naaalala ay dahil ikaw ang iniisip nya that time. You're supposed to meet that time di ba?"

"Yes, ate. P-pero ba't ganon? Ako lang talaga? As in lahat ng memories about sa'min, yun lang? Parang impusible naman ata yan." I answered Ate Clara. This is so unbelievable.

"Ako nga din naguguluhan sa explanation ng doctor na 'yun e. Pero medyo gets ko. Parang sobrang iniisip ka kasi, tapos natamaan 'yung brain so lahat ng tungkol sa'yo 'yun yung nabura sa isip nya." Ate Kayla explained further. But I just furrowed my eyebrows.

"Kumbaga sa pinupunong tubig sa baso. May ibang baso sa paligid pero yung isang baso lang ang pinupuno that time. Natamaan, yun lang ang natapon. Gets mo ba?" Tanong uli ni Ate Kayla.

So kasalanan ko pa na naiisip nya ako that time? E pusakal pala.

"Ate, it doesn't necessarily mean na negative 'yung iniisip ni kuya sa'yo ha. Either too much happiness or sadness daw before accident. And we believe na yung former yung iniisip ni Kuya non." Jasper assured me.

"And we have bad news and good news. Ano gusto mong mauna? No, unahin na natin ang good news" I nodded in response to Ate Clara's question.

"Good news, one thing's for sure- makakaalala din daw si Xander kasi temporary memory loss lang 'yan."

I tried to smile while waiting for her bad news.

"Bad news is... We don't know how long it'll take for him to remember you. Pwedeng tomorrow, or after years pa."

Parang bunutan pala 'to sa lotto e. Pwedeng manalo pero malaki din yung chance na matatalo. Pero susukuan ko pa ba e isang taon ngang hindi nagsasalita mas minahal ko, ngayon pa na gising na? Kaso tinataboy naman ako.

"We'll let him remember you. Let's recreate your memories. And the doctor even said na pag lagi mo sya kinakausap at dinadala sa places na napuntahan nyo na, mas mapapadali para sakanya ang makaalala. We'll help you." Ate Kayla hugged me after saying those words.

Gustuhin man namin gawin 'yon, kung ayaw naman ni Xander hindi pa din namin puwedeng gawin. And matatagalan pa syang makakalabas sa hospital kasi kailangan nya pang irehab for him to walk again.

"Kaya pa, Ate?" Jasper asked afterwards.

"Yakang yaka." I winked at him. I love him too much to give up on him. But sometimes, is love enough to make the relationship work?