I THINK I'VE FALLEN IN LOVE

CHAPTER EIGHT

CHAPTER EIGHT

                         HARRY

I didn't know what I felt when I kissed Louis.

I was feeling so much at once and I was feeling good and relieved that I did it and gave it a try but on the other side I was feeling scared.

Fucking scared. Terrified.

I just kissed my male best friend.

Two reasons why that couln't be.

Why we couln't be.

Louis didn't pull away. He fucking kissed me back.

I really didn't know what to feel.

I was mostly scared but- I was happy too.

It felt so fucking right.

Like as if we'd fit together like lost pieces fit to a puzzle.

One and one.

Harry and Louis.

Boy and Boy.

Wrong. Wrong. Wrong.

Mom would freak out if she'd knew what was going on inside me.

Luckily, she didn't know.

And I didn't plan on ever telling her.

It was just a weird phase. I'm 16. I had a lot weird phases already while beeing a teenager.

Most of them were bad.

But this phase topped everything.

Fucking everything.

I couldn't love my male best friend.

What would the boys think??

It was wrong and I should just forget it happen.

But in the bathroom the next morning, I bumped into Louis.

I stumbled but Louis grabbed my arm and saved me from falling to the ground.

I croaked out a „T-Thank you, Lou." and quickly walked in, shutting the door of the bathroom behind me, leaning against the door a few more seconds.

I breathed out shakily. „Oh god."

I was so fucked.

How the hell was I supposed to get a clear vision over all my mixed feeling for him, when I had to see him everyday, see him, talk to him?

We need to keep distance.

It was the only way for me to get a clear vision of my feelings.

But I didn't know if I really wanted that. I knew I fell in love with him.

But I didn't want that because it was wrong and- I just fucking fell in love.

And I wasn't able to change anything anything.

I fell in love.

I could just hope that I would get over him quickly.

This couldn't happen.

Falling in love with my male best friend.

No.

It was wrong.

-

I managed to not talk to Louis much when school started again, but it was still weird.

We were all best friends and the others sure realized that something was wrong between me and Louis.

„Harry? What's wrong with you and Louis? You are both behaving so strange since a few days."

I flinched when Liam chaught me off guard while I was looking at Louis, talking to Niall and Zayn from the distance.

I shrugged my shoulders. „Nothing is wrong."

Liam watched me worried. „Are you sure it's nothing? You can tell me, Harry. Anything. I'm your friend. You can trust me."

„I know, Li but I- I don't know how to think about it myself."

„Tell me. Maybe I can help you."

I sighed, swallowing tickly before telling him everything.

From my weird feelings to our kiss in Zayn's kitchen.

I felt so disgusted by myself when I told him.

„I'm sorry. It's disgusting, I know."

Liam shook his head violently. „Don't say that! It's not disgusting! It's called Love, Harry! And you fell hard! Louis too!"

I shook my head. „He only kissed me back! That doesn't has to mean anything!"

Liams eyes widen.

„Just look at the way he was staring at you all the time! He has done that for weeks! His face was always lightening up when he saw you! When he saw you smiling! It's the same with you! You are both fools that fell in love with eachother! But one has to do the first step!"

I shook my head, biting my lip. „I can't do that, Li. I- I can't."

„Louis will probably think the same. Harry, please. Louis won't kill you or anything. He loves you back, it's so damn obvious. Look, he's watching you right now, am I right?"

Without turning around, Liam was right.

Louis was indeed looking over at us.

At me.

When our gaze met, we quickly looked away again.

We were both fools. Liam was right.

But I couln't change it.

Maybe I was a fool for him.

But- only for him.

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NOTE: LARRY IS REAL BITCHES.

LOUIS WOULD SAY: OBVIOUSLY THERE'S NO THRUTH IN IT. OBVIOUSLY. IPHONE CONSPIRACY.