one night (phan)

Chapter 4

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Phil stood in the lounge, shellshocked. What? What had Dan meant by that? Why did he not want to talk to him? Phil felt tears falling down his face from his ice blue eyes, and he fell to the floor. His tears made a small pool on the floor in front of him, and Dan felt incredibly guilty. 'Why did I say that?!' He thought. He could hear Phil it was that loud. Suddenly Dan felt tears prick in his own eyes, but he ignored them. 'I'm such a dick! Phil doesn't deserve this!' He thought. He wanted to apologise but the only words that came out his mouth were "Phil shut up you prick!" Dan slapped his hand against his mouth. He then realised he was angry at Phil for some reason.

Dan felt his phone buzz but he ignored it. He didn't care at the moment. Finally he answered, just to stop that annoying buzzing "What." He said carelessly.
"Dude just think-"
"No! I told you! I'm not fucking gay, I honestly don't give a shit about what Phil feels like!" Dan shouted at his phone.
"Me and Chris are just asking you to think, even if-"
"No, I know I'm not gay and I really don't like Phil. To be honest, I don't care if I hurt him." Dan knew that he did, but he didn't know why he wasn't saying it. "Do you even have a heart?"
"Well maybe I don't." Dan said then hung up. He felt awful. Just awful. He was hurting all his friends, especially Phil. He was honestly confused by it all. He wasn't gay- Dan Howell does not like guys in that way.

The next day Phil found himself curled up on the lounge floor as he woke up. He opened his eyes and realised that he probably cried himself to sleep again; these past couple of days had been hell. He'd dreamt that none of it had happened but he gave a small chuckle. It was only a dream. And, at the moment, for him it looked like dreams never came true.

Dan woke up to no surprise, apart from Phil bumping into him in the hallway. "Mind out you prick!" He shouted carelessly. That just set Phil off again. Tears rolled down his cheeks and he wiped them away. He'd become used to crying every hour or so actually; it certainly wasn't new to him now.

Suddenly Phil felt like making a video. Not just any video, oh no, this one was going to make people rebel against Dan. As soon as he got his equipment set up, he pressed record. "Hey guys! If you notice my red eyes and blotchy cheeks," he said, clearly pointing them out, "You'll know I've been crying. I'm never one for crying, I try to be as positive as I can, but this actually has a reason for it. One of my best friends has been really horrible to me recently, due to a very unfortunate incident, and, I'm not trying to get you to hate Dan, but I want you to help me stop him from being so horrible. All you have to do is come up with a hashtag and tweet Dan with it, so he can hopefully stop being so mean!"

Dan heard every word of it through the wall, and his face went red and tears of anger streamed out his eyes. That was it. The last fucking straw. He officially hated Philip Michael Lester. He now didn't give a shit about what he said to him and why, Phil was trying to make people across the internet hate him.

The next morning Phil decided that he was actually going to try and talk to Dan, so at about nine am he went to his bedroom and knocked on it. "Dan? Are you awake?" He shouted through the door.
"Phil just fuck off, I don't want to speak to anyone let alone you."

Phil had heard Dan ranting to himself last night about not being gay or bisexual, so he understood that he was probably just confused by it all. He was probably just confused about his sexuality and what he wanted.

Phil had uploaded the video he shot yesterday hadn't worked; Dan just hated him even more now. He had comments on Phil's video a number of times with such things as, 'You prick I hate you'
'Fuck off Phil'
'Delete this video NOW!'
And much more rude and hateful remarks. Luckily over the years Phil had learnt one thing- ignore the haters. And at this moment in time, Dan was a hater. It had gradually been harder to live with Dan and his remarks since their 'drunken mistake' a few days ago, but Phil was so used to crying about it, it had actually became apart of his daily life. But the worst thing was that Dan didn't seem to care anymore.

At the start of it all, it seemed like Dan cared the smallest bit, and now he obviously didn't seem to give a fuck about it and what he was doing to Phil, gradually tearing his heart apart. But Phil was determined not to care; he just overlooked everything Dan said with the most positive attitude he could and passed it on that Dan was confused about everything.

He thought this would all go away and blow over

Poor Phil, it wouldn't blow over in a long time.