Contractually Marriage ✓ᵗᵏ

Chapter 40 ✓

Warning: cringe smut ahead!

|40.| I will be your last

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    "I really have no interest in your sexual life with Yoongi. " Jungkook says and the other just rolls his eyes, then looks at the other amused.

     "At least, I have a sexual life. I bet you and Taehyung didn't do it even once. And when I know that in a few days you have to get married, and this time for real, it seems like I can't believe it. " the older one comments and shrugs, as the bunny boy feels his cheeks instantly hotter. 

     "You can not know." the younger one mumbles, then he looks at the door, hoping Taehyung wouldn't come home from work right now.

      At the moment, they are both in Taehyung and Jungkook's bedroom. Yes, they have been sharing a single room for some time. They realized that two would be useless.

     "Oh, please, I can tell just looking at your face! Tell me I am wrong!" the blond haired-boy replies, and the other one just sighs. 

      Yep, his best friend has right. He never made love to Taehyung. He doesn't know why, but he feels that the CEO is always trying to avoid crossing barriers. And the only thing that he can thought, is that Taehyung may feel disgusted. He probably doesn't want to make love with him because the younger one was first forced by the idiot Mathew.

      And yes, Jungkook really wants to move on to the next level of their relationship. He really wants to connect physically with the one he loves, not just spiritually. He wants to feel loved, not used, just like he felt on that horrible day. He wants Taehyung's hands to give him the security he needs, not to force him not to move, like Mathew's hands did. He wants to feel him in every pore, and to breathe his name, while the blood would scream exactly the same. 

      But he can't do that if Taehyung has restraints. He can't do that if Taehyung still sees him dirty. Because no matter how hard he tries to forget, he can't. Both he and Taehyung will never be able to forget what happened about four months ago. But the bunny boy really wouldn't want this to become a barrier between them. He's too embarrassed to start a discussion like that, but he'll probably have to.

      "I- I can not." the doll eyed-boy admits, feeling still a little embarrassed to talk with Jimin about this matter. "I feel like he's holding back, I feel like ... he's seeing me dirty because of what happened with Mathew. " he comments after, as the older one just looks at him with compassion. 

      "Kook, he loves you more than anything. He certainly doesn't see you as dirty or anything. You know all too well how much he suffered at his turn when ... that incident happened. " Jimin says, and the other slowly approves.

      Yes, he knows how much Taehyung suffered at the same time as him. back then He knew he was always trying to cheer him up, but there was only pain in his heart. He knows because he saw it in his eyes. He saw pain, anger, sadness, all combined at the same time.

      "Yeah, In know, but I... I kinda want him, but he doesn't seem to want me. " Jungkook says in a low tone, feeling more than just embarrassed.

       "Please, this is a lie! I didn't saw him only once looking at your ass! " Jimin raises his voice and the other immediately blushes even more than before. 

       "Don't yell, idiot! He has to come from the company by this time! " Jungkook raises his voice as well, and the other one chuckles, then gets a little more serious.

        "I was just saying you should talk to him openly about it if you're insecure. " Jimin suggests and the younger shrugs.

       "I'm a little ashamed to talk about it. " Jungkook admits and the other rolls his eyes again.