jonnor fanfic ; "best friends?"

|| chapter 5 ||

-JUDES POV-

Ever since that day, the day Connor kissed me its always been awkard between us. I just hate it so much. I want us to be friends.. nothing more. I like him, at least i think i do. But I dont want it to turn out like this & even if i tried to bring it up it would just be even more awkward.

-CONNOR'S POV-

-RING, RING, RING, RING- I hear my alarm. I get up & go to get ready for school. As I put my backpack on I get a text, from Jude. 

-TEXT CONVO-

J: Listen Connor I don't want things to be awkard between us. That kiss it was a mistake. I regret it. Just know that we will just be friends, nothing more. 

C: Yeah, alright I agree.

But i'm lying. I feel so hurt. A tear slips from my eye. I wipe it away & head to my bus stop. 

-JUDES POV-

I get to school & as I am at my locker I can see Daria & Connor making out like hardcore. I ignore it & get my stuff for first period & slam my locker & walk away. Wait why do I feel like this? This feeling in my stomach, it feels like jealousy? No it can be I told Connor off, no way. "Hey wait up!" Connor says running up to me. "Why don't you go makeout with Daria on your way to class" I say rolling my eyes. "Is it a problem..?" Connor says. "Yeah well maybe you should get a room because I don't want to see you eat your girlfriend right by my locker." I say storming off into class.

-CONNORS POV-

Why does Jude seem so mad? He's the one who told me that "It was nothing" & "He regrets it". I'm so confused, he's so confused. Ugh I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Does Jude like me or not? Is he even gay? Am I gay? OH GOD. UHM. I need time. I really do.

-JUDES POV-

I'm now in 3rd period & its so boring. I raise my hand "Can I use the restroom?" The teacher lets me go & I walk over to the boys bathroom. Guess who I see, Connor. I ignore him & wash my hands for no reason xD. "Listen Jude i'm really sorry" He says to me. "Yeah it's fine" I say back."Jude, do you like-" "NO I DONT LIKE YOU CONNOR I FUCKING LOVE YOU" I scream & storm out. Oh no I can feel the tears running down my face. I run to the other hallway & just ball me eyes out. I wipe the tears & walk back to class.

-CONNOR'S POV-

Jude just confessed that... he loves me? I honestly don't know how to feel about this. I don't know if I love him back... I just wanna cry, I want everything just to go away. Do I feel happy? I'm so glad it's the weekend I have time to think about what to do because Jude just put me in a situation I can't figure out. 

DUN DUN DUNNNNN