choked

chp.1- It's me.

As perfectly normal does the title sound ,it's no good for the girl as she didn't know what she had to face. I'm 24 and my name is Irene. My story is no special but more like abnormal and totally what life shouldn't sound like.
I was born on 26th of April at exactly 12 p.m under the Waning gibboous to a family of 5, where i was the 2nd kid...
    I pity my younger self, as that kid didn't know what she was about to go though or experience as such.
As she entered this world, she was labeled to be weak as any other girl is?
Sounds so wrong to have discriminated genders that way and to think low of me just because I was a girl?
     The society was harsh , wasn't it? Growing around all this negativity and judgmental statements made me sick to my stomach. No kid deserved that.
Well as a minor I didn't even have the right to talk about my opinions, I was just supposed to live how my parents wanted me to , I was never allowed to raise my voice or dream of things that I wanted. At times I'd stare at the blank wall wondering how awfully brutal the society was against women and just the way they're labeled as a soft piece of junk to begin with. Like was that even society that we were referring to? Humanity doesn't exist in a lot.
    I had literally no one to look upto or I never have had someone to hold onto, while the other kids enjoyed life , I was just stuck at home each night and live a perfectly normal life "as my parents supposed." I never got the support I deserved,  I knew I had to be strong by myself . Take my word , all you have is your own self at the end. When the world would be carving into your skin, you'll have to build yourself in the dark while a million questions cross your mind but trust me , you'll make it till the end. 

     As anyone reading this believes that i was this shy , and awkward kid , then you have a messed up idea about me. I was  a fun kid who just wasn't given the chance to be around people but i definitely  knew what i wanted to become and what sort of a life i wanted to lead. I used to escape from reality at times and lived inside my own world . I was so young and wanted to explore each bit of what i had imagined . I know i can't tell what lies ahead of me but i will dare to do it anyways because i hold the power to define myself and no one else. Well this story is no different to me , and in short it's just a chaotic mess of what my life was as a teenager .