Just leave already...

Love me?

-good morning love-Andrew/\_/\
~it's to early babes I don't go to school-Lila ;*
-I'm on my way now love - Andrew/\_/
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~I'm ready bum but bring me Starbucks please and i love you loads don't forget that lover boy ~ Lila;*
-okay an I knew u would say that so I did and I love u loads to baby but I love u more than loads.- Andrew /\_/\
~not possible -Andrew/\_/\
~yes possible~Lila ;*
(A.N yes I yes I quoted finding carter )
God I love him but will we last before he finds someone better I'm just some weak , small , nerd , quite girl that lost her mom and twin sister her father told to kill herself and uncial beat everyday . maybe he is using me I'm not pretty I have scars everywhere I'm not pretty like Jordon or funny Jase or have ability like Adion I'm just useless an a waste like father said I guess and maybe I can be will falcon and mom in heaven or a bliss ever they call it now a days I just feel like people don't want me here like when Andrew looks at me I feel like a piece I me or a toy or like if a prank with the popular crowd I gave him my virginity well he was my best but that's not the point , what if I'm just for a act but I'm falling head over heals for him Ugh I need a drink or two " jase do we have any drunks here " he my mumbles something "what " then "yes in the cabinet why u ask lil one hear now " he screams in my ear , I laugh and grab a drink and then another and another then I stop counting until Andrew shows up " hey Lila " I was on the couch then watching I really don't know I think it's a Barney or full house " um dren why is the fucking purple tree talking to me and where my model boyfriend I think his name is andro do u hear me dren " I can't seem to walk straight to this guy I keep call dren "um did u drink Lila " he ask me grabbing me holding me up from Falling " nooooooo why can u smell it in me damn my boyfriend ganna kill me but who cares he don't love me I'm a joke to him " he looks at me " why do u say that " I look at him and stumble back to the kitchen and grab the bottle and take a big wig of it before continuing " well I feel like he doesn't love me like I'm worthless and he will find better than me and that I feel like I was a joke from the begging and then sometime I feel his love and I feel special the. Sometimes I feel rejection and hurt " I take a another wig then he take my bottle "your done for the day and baby I do love you always I would never use you and I would and can never find better your the best I can get now stop drinking and rest sorry made you feel like this but I'll make it up to you by making Adion give u a massage " "thanks he has the power of magic with his hands like damn I feel different as hell every time " I mood in agreement then pass out no school for me today but a hangover instead boo.
~~~~~~~<2 hours later >~~~~~~~~~
" Ughh someone turn the fucking light"
Then I heard someone laugh " maybe if u didn't drink you be good love but come here because the light is off and all the curtains are closed it's just the t.v and the hallway light that is on" I can tell it's Andrew I smile lightly but my headache is keeping me from going bigger " no u come here and bring me pain relief and my antidepressant babe then we can cuddle I miss ur warm body im so cold " He put his hand out and a glass of water out and I drank the pills and he jumped in bed with me and his smile made me relise there will NEVER BE A GOODBYE since I just got him , I'll never leave him hope he thinks the same .