Fay.

5.

Of course the damn stupid brat that I am, I messaged her anyway after a couple of hours. We talked a bit, when I decided to tell her one of my secrets...

Ren: I cut myself today... I thought I'd tell you.
Fay: Have you done that before?
Ren: Yes... Multiple times..
Fay: You shouldn't...

I sigh deeply and sit on my bed. Leaning against my wall and curling my legs up against my chest. This is again one of those conversations, where people tell you, you shouldn't do thing like that. I didn't feel like having a conversation like that, so i tried to change the subject.

Ren: Because your best friend did that too... Is that why I shouldn't?
Fay: ...Yes?
Ren: You just don't want to get hurt, you don't care about the others.
Fay: I do.
Ren: If you did, you'd have met your friend. If you did, you'd have already seen me in real life...

No response. After like 20 mimutes she replies though...

Fay: I can't.
Ren: Why not?
Fay: Because.
Ren: Just tell me!
Fay: Why would you care?
Ren: Don't use that shit on me...
Fay: Then why do you want to know?
Ren: Because at first you kept saying that you'll come to me to give me a hug... What about that now?
Fay: I can't go out of this room.
Ren: What room?
Fay: The hospital room...

Hospital room... Right. Ren, you fucking asshole. You damn douchebag. I feel so bad for her, and I feel like such an asshole that I decide to leave it be. She doesn't say anything also, so I just go and take a walk outside.