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𝙱𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚂𝚝𝚘𝚛𝚢

(Oikawa's pov)

"Life is beautiful! Look around"

Yep useless. Why would they even give that piece of paper to me? It's kinda cringe tho. I chuckled and walked home. The city was so noisy, dogs were barking, kids were laughing and people were talking. It was an ordinary sunny day. But I want to disappear from this all. Please just let me leave this world.

As I finally walked inside of my apartment, I just lazily laid down on my bed and checked the notifications on my phone. I love how my fangirls are so kind to me , they always text nice stuff in my Instagram posts. But after reading it all , I just threw my phone away and stared at the ceiling. But why do they like me? I didn't do anything good for them? Is it my looks? What makes them like me so much? I never give them a lot of attention, I'm such a horrible person. I then closed my eyes.

. . .

I opened my eyes and sat up immediately to check the time, shoot, it was already 7 pm, how did I even fall asleep? I looked around my room. Why do I wanna die so badly? I feel like I don't belong here thats why. Why am I asking that myself? I shakes my head and stood up to get myself a glass of water. As i was drinking it slowly. Again these thoughts. I ruin everything, I'm such a useless person. I shall just end myself. It will be good for everyone. I'm so tired of everything I want to rest, but this world keeps putting more pressure on me. Please just let me fucking die already. I dropped the glass of water and tears were running down my face. It hurts me so badly, why can't I just enjoy life? The glass shattered on the floor as I was about to collect the broken glass. The next thing I did was look at my wrist and see my slightly blue veins, I didn't even know what I was doing, as I cut it with the pierce of glass , blood was pouring down my hands. I was doing it more, more and more.. until I felt dizzy and just ended up blacking out.

...

"SIR? CAN YOU HEAR ME?" Someone yelled, but there voice was so far away from me. "Take him to the ???" Wait what? Take who? Where? WHO IS EVEN TALKING RIGHT NOW?

I woke up in a white room , as I looked around. Amazing , I'm in the hospital. How the hell did I even get here. I groaned, I cant even die in peace. I turned around to face a women who stood next to me , she smiled and told me something and ran off somewhere , I just shrugged and sat up to look around the room again. After a few hours I've spent with doctors, nurses and with my new therapist. It made me want to die even more, this is just useless. I then heard how my door slammed , I flinched at the sudden loud noise, it was my mom. She was in tears , she ran up to me telling me what an idiot I am while clinging to my shirt. She was so emotional, while I didn't feel anything. At all. She then stopped crying and stood next to my bed looking at the floor, the silence was so loud it was kinda awkward, I've waited for her to leave. And so she did. She didn't say a word and didn't even look at me when she left. I'm just ruining her life, I'm so sorry mom.

(Time skip. Current time: Thursday. 9 am)

"Good morning, Oikawa" said my new therapist walking up to me, I greeted her and sat up , trying to smile. She was asking me some questions as usual. And then she left. The nurse brought me some food, not to be rude but it looked disgusting so I didn't even dare to try it. After 9 long hours, my therapist came back, but when she opened the door I saw my mom, I don't know why but I felt so much better , I'm just glad to see my mom. My mom didn't come in. She closed the door and my therapist came up to me

"Oikawa, listen, we've talked with your mom and she agreed with me about taking you to the mental hospital. I will be there with you, and we will take good care of you. So you will have to pack your stuff tomorrow, don't worry the doctors said you are fully recovered" She said with a big smile. But it was no happy news for me, I heard a lot of creepy stuff about that place. Why do I even need to go there? I sighed and nodded with a smile, she then left. I was waiting for my mom to come in but it was no use. She didn't come in. But I want her to be with me. I want my mothers love.

( time skip. Current time : Friday. 11 am)

I was finally done with packing my stuff, I had some bandages covering my scars. I mean I kinda liked them tho so yea. I still didn't get to see my mom before leaving. My therapist drove me to that mental hospital, it looked nice. As i left the car I saw a lot of kids and grown up people , it hurt me to realize that these people suffered/suffering from something horrible. She gave me a little tour but it was already kind of late now. This place was far away from the hospital and I'm already tired. She then took me to my room and left me alone. I sighed and just laid down on the bed closing my eyes. This all has to be a dream. This just cant be real. But who knew that this would change my life.

(Authors note)
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HEY EVERYONEEEE , I'm so thankful to u for everything. I hope y'all are doing good <3