Ｅｕｐｈｏｒｉａ ♡ Ｏｉｓｕｇａ

𝙰𝚗𝚐𝚜𝚝

( readers POV)

It felt like the time stopped

It got so quite and the aura was weird

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Oikawa just stared at Suga's hazel eyes

"You what?"  Oikawa asked confusingly still staring at him , it's like he couldn't take his eyes off. Suga sat there quite for less then a minute but when he was about to speak, a loud knock was heard on the door that made both of the guys turn their head towards it
The nurse came in telling something to Sugawara but Tooru's gaze went back on Koushi who was busy listening to that nurse.

(Oikawa's POV)

I feel like I wanna throw up , I feel too sick. I feel weird and.. and I don't know just everything in here is weird. A boy got raped? What? I mean, it's just weird and why would someone do that. Only at this moment i started realizing how scary it feels, i mean everyday I would see in the internet how bravely people talk about it but when there's a person who got raped is sitting right in front of you. What am I supposed to tell him? Do I have to say I'm sorry? Do I have to maybe tell him that it will be okay? What should I say?
Why is it so hard to help someone in this kind of situation. I'm always looking for help but I don't even know how to help others, that's just selfish.

"Oikawa" I heard his voice and snapped out of my thoughts

"Is everything okay?" He asked , but I couldn't say a word , I felt paralyzed. What should I say?

Sugawara sighed and started fidgeting his fingers
"Look I'm sorry , I know you might feel disgusted and everything, and I'm sorry for telling you this all.."

He was still saying something, but I was trying to find the words to cheer him up, but I'm failing

I noticed that he stopped talking and he once again looked at me and then on the left where the door was slightly opened, he again apologized and left the room

Wait

I didn't say anything to him

I was planning on cheering him up

Well I guess I will try to do that later maybe , or maybe I shouldn't talk about it. I hope he is alright

(Sugawara's POV)

I knew it, he is disgusted by me

While I was walking I felt my knees going weak and o really wanted to let out everything I have inside of me, it hurts , it does , a lot.

I felt hot tears running through my cheeks, I closed my mouth with my hand trying not to make a noise.

It gutted so much I just couldn't hold it in, it might sound stupid but I felt hurt , it's not his fault it was my fault

Only my fault 

I felt someone bump into me , I was trying not to have any eye contact with that person but

"Oh Suga!! You're here"

Oh shit , Atsumu.

"Sorry i wasn't looking where I was going-" I replied but I got interrupted

"Why are you crying ?" This time it wasn't  his silly tone , it was a serious tone

I stood there quietly trying to think what I should say

I felt him slightly grabbing me by the shoulders

"Suga, why are you crying?" He repeated again and it just made me cry even more, why is he asking me that it's just making me crying even more damn it

"I've told him everything" I whispered feeling more tears roll down

"Everything? Wait who? What happened?" Atsumu asked more and more questions but I felt too weak , my eyes were burning and my knees were getting weak

I sighed

"Atsumu, leave me alone"

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Shit why did I say that?

angst
/aŋst/
noun
a feeling of deep anxiety or dread, typically an unfocused one about the human condition or the state of the world in general.

<Authors notes>
This is the weirdest chapter I've wrote tbh 💀
But I will try to make it better later
But hru y'all?