Big Little Star

Passion

"You are my sunshine my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey." Dad sang, his electrifying voice overflowing my heart. "Felix, you can't spend the whole night singing to her. She has school tomorrow." Mom said as she walked in. "Come on Mommy, just one more song?" I smiled. "Fine. One more song. And then our little princess needs to catch some beauty sleep." Mom giggled, tickling my cheek. "As long as I get to join in." Dad nodded. "Twinkle twinkle little star how I wonder what you are.." Mom and Dad sang, me falling fast asleep.

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"Hello Miss Greene."
"I thought I told you not to call me that."
I laughed.
Parker grasped my hand.
"Oh whatever. Let's go."

Parker had told me that he wanted to take me out to the carnival the day after the Awards Rehearsal, and I happily accepted. And today was the day.

It was about 6pm and there were rides and carnival games all around us. Parker told me he wanted to pay for my tickets, and I of course was very happy. But, being famous and going to the carnival is not an easy thing. "OH MY GOD ITS IVY GREENE!" Teenagers screamed all around me. "Can I get a picture with you?!" They said, completely ignoring my wish for privacy. "I'm sorry you guys but can you please go? Me and my boyfriend are trying to enjoy our time here." I said calmly, realizing what I said. I had called Parker my boyfriend.

Parker stared at me shocked for a second, then went on with his day. "Oh okay of course Ivy!" Then the girl pulled out her camera and snapped a picture of us and ran away! Ugh! "Parker I'm so sorry.." I said, not finishing my sentence before Parker kissed me, the whole world going dark. All I saw was Parker and the stars. I didn't know I was so in love. Cameras flashed around us but I didn't care. I loved Parker and he loved me.

Now, this must all seem to you like it's going too fast. And well, it is. I never thought I'd be so in love with a man.

"Why would you think I'm mad? I love you, Ivy." I gasped, looking at him with wide eyes. "I love you too, Parker." Then, we both snapped out of the moment, realizing the eyes all around us. "CAN I GET A PICTURE?!" People shouted all around us. "I'm sorry, I think our time is over here." I smiled, leading Parker to the parking lot. "I'm so sick of all of my fans... they don't understand the meaning of privacy." I sighed. "I don't care, how many times do I have to say it. You called me your boyfriend, Ivy."

I shivered. The August air was warm, yet breezy. Everything seemed okay in the world. Accept, my Dad wasn't here to experience my success. "Parker I think I should tell you something, maybe you can help." I said, looking into his eyes. "Anything." I looked around then spoke, almost puking. "I haven't been feeling my singing anymore. Whenever I sing I don't feel the way I used to. I don't feel that electrifying feeling in my chest when I pour the words out of my mouth like molasses. I just don't feel like I have my- my- my-" "Passion." Parker finished, grabbing my hand. "When my Grandma died I felt the same way. She was the reason I sang."

"But I still felt my passion after my Dad died. Why am I just now losing it? It's been a year. Maybe it's time I finally get over it." I sighed, turning away from Parker. "You don't have to get over anything. It all comes in time. My grandma died over 3 years ago and I found my passion again. It comes in time, Miss Greene." I rubbed my eyes as he turned me back around to face him. It felt like a fever dream. The sunset hung behind him, almost like a calling for me to kiss him. And I did, only seeing him and the stars again. I truly did love him.

  "I've never felt this close to someone in only 2 days." I giggled, looking down. "Maybe it's because we're soulmates." Parker smirked. Yes. We were soulmates.

At home I laid in my bed thinking about all the events of the day. The way I loved him was like nothing I had ever felt before. I looked at my wrist, still seeing my paper carnival bracelet there. I remembered the feeling of Parker placing it there, asking me if it was too tight. I of course laughed so hard I almost peed my pants, because he had chocolate on his lips from a chocolate ice cream cone. The whole day felt like a dream. A dream. Yes that what it was. I pinched myself a couple times. Nothing. I could feel my heart beating in my chest, I could feel my necklace as I swang it back and forth on my neck.

"Miss Ivy, someone's here to see you." Natalie said, coming into my bedroom. "Who is it?" "Your mother." I nodded as she left, sitting up. "Ivy!" Mom yelled, running to me in an outburst. "What is it?" I asked, struggling to get out of her hug. "There's something I should tell you, well, since your dads anniversary of his death is coming up..." Mom murmured under her breath. I had almost forgotten. "What is it mom? What aren't you telling me?" I said, obviously anxious. "Well, there's no right place to start but here we go."