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CHAPTER 10: THE PAINFUL PAST PART 2

Chapter 10: the painful past Part 2

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Tsuna’s stomach growls in hunger. It has been two week since Nana’s funeral. Since this week, his father falls into depression. He has been ignoring everything around him, including Tsuna. It looks like he is in his own world. Sometime, he crying and screaming for Nana to come back. Sometime, he loudly laughing and dancing all alone while one of his hand holding the bottle of sake. Sometime, he thrashing around the house and destroys everything. Sometime, he just sleeps the whole day and when he looks at Tsuna, the looks of his eye told that he really want to end the boy’s life

For this two week, their neighbor has been taking care of Tsuna. She pitied his state after losing his mother, now he facing his father’s depression. But, seeing the poor woman has to take care of her children, he politely asking to the woman to return home. Once he enters the house two weeks ago, it looks like it has been hit by typhoon.

 He peeks to the living room, seeing the older man snoring loudly. He slowly steps closer to his father and shaking him slightly, to wake him up.

“Otou-san. Otou-san,”whispers Tsuna lightly. Iemitsu move a bit before turning his head to see who dare disturbing his dream about Nana. He looks at Tsuna who inherited Nana’s look more than him. If not thinking Tsuna is the cause of Nana’s death, he would still cherished him because of his face is look like his mother. Long ago, when Tsuna was born he is the happiest person accepting the baby. But now it is all different. The love to the boy he once felt to the boy now has been replace with hatred and disgust.

“What do you want?” asks Iemitsu harshly. He wouldn’t even steal a glance on his son tremble form.

“I’m hungry,” answers Tsuna timidly.

“You’re hungry? Well you deserved it. Why should I fed a killer like you? Now step out,” Iemitsu shoved the boy harshly until he bumped to the nearest wall. Iemitsu didn’t care about Tsuna’s cry of pain but he quickly steps out from the living room. Before he reaches the stairs, Tsuna’s question stops him.

­­­­­“Do you hate me, Otou-san?” Tsuna asks in hurtful voice.

“You didn’t know and you cannot even imagine how much I hate and detest you right now and forever,” said Iemitsu, his tears sliding slowly before he takes his step to upstairs.

Tsuna hears his father reply, being a five years old child he was, he crying and wailing loudly. He knows the death of his mother means everything ends for him. Everything that he loves was ripped away from him. Ignoring his hunger, he continues to cry, silently asking and begging for someone to console him from the painful feeling he feel in his chest. He didn’t know what it is called.

Tsuna reaching his hand and pats the hair of the younger him eventhough he couldn’t physically touch him. He looks at the boy who continues to cry until his voice become hoarse. Tsuna sees the tears of younger him falling freely from his eyes. How many years since he last shed tears? He didn’t even remember.

 He sits beside the crying boy even though the boy is unaware of him. It is just an early episode of his painful past. He continues to accompany the crying boy; at least he knows that his younger self is not alone during his time of needing for someone.

Iemitsu places his hand on his ear, trying not to hear Tsuna’s heartbreaking cries. He knows his heart pushing himself to console the young boy for the lost of his mother. He knows Tsuna is just a child who lost his place of sharing love but he himself who losing the love of his life, he just couldn’t bear the pain.