Melodies and Desires *IS BACK!*

Part 11

Recap

Ashton bumps into Soul in the hallway of their new school. Ashton is a changed person and he realizes that what he did to Soul in the past was wrong. He thinks he recognizes Soul but isn't sure. He almost says her name but Soul's new found friend grabs her and they walk away. Both Soul and Ashton are in shock.

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Ashton. Ashton. Ashton

My crush, my enemy, my bully.

Could it really be. He's back and he's at my school.

I was now sitting on my bed with my Ipod on full blast. Ashton was really here, at my school. What was he doing here and why was he alone? He had many friends back in our old school. I'm sure he felt alone and depressed. Maybe it would be a good idea to help him out.. become his friend. NO.

What was I thinking?! Ashton used to be a young bully. Now he's a grown man.. and.. well.. he's attractive. Very attractive. I needed to stop!

I got up and paced around my bed. I was losing my mind. Ashton used to be the only person who could make me happy without realizing it. He was my rock, my fantasy. Unfortunately he broke me and threw me like a peice of trash.

I thought of schemes to get revenge. Maybe throwing slime down his back would do the job, or maybe hitting him in the face with ten basketballs.

Think about it Soul, do you really think these plans will get you anywhere?

Of course they will! They'll teach him a lesson! He deserves it.

Oh, don't be stupid. Let karma teach him. Time will tell everything, what if he's changed?

Karma won't do anything! He can never change. Shutup!

You shutup!

Am I really arguing with my subconcious? I really am going insane. Only you could do this to me Ashton.

I yawned widely and realized how late it had gotten. I quickly put away my things and laid on my bed. I thought of all the things I used to write about Ashton and how perfect he seemed..

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I quickly ran to my locker. I was late! Mr. B was going to kill me! I roughly opened my locker and picked up the first text book I saw. A note fell out- my love note. I made a bunch with my name and Ashton's name surrounded by a heart. I went to pick up the note but someone else's hand grabbed it before mine. I looked up to find Ashton's friend, Derek smirking down at me.

"Hey fatty, what's this we got here? A love note!" Derek yelled out the last bit and called his buddies over. I covered my face with my book. I slammed my locker shut and ran for my class.

"Not so fast chubby!" A hand grabbed my wrist and whipped me around. My head felt heavy.

"Soul weds Ashton? Soul plus Ashton? Soul loves Ashton?!" Derek threw his head back and barked an evil laugh. "Wait until he see's this!" He walked away from me.

Ashton was going to see that? Oh no! I'm such an idiot! I knew I should have ripped that up! It wasn't even anything serious. I wrote that out of boredom. It's not like I was some crazy stalker chick! I jumped beside Derek.

"Please don't show him that! It wasn't anything important.. I didn't mean to write that.. I was just bored. You know, we all do things when we're bored!" I pleaded with him.

"Listen to me closely because I'm only going to say this once.. I. Don't Care." Derek and his friends laughed at me and walked off without pity.

A while later, I was in class and we were watching a movie. I tried to get my mind off of the whole Derek situation.. but if Ashton really saw that... that would be the worst thing ever. He would hate me and think I was some psycho. He would be scared of me! I didn't mean to come off as scary!

A knock on the door caught everyone's attention. Mr. B got up to get it. He mumbled something incoherent to the visitor and called me over. Me? No one ever comes for me.. unless it's dad.. but he never comes. My curiousty was quickly replaced with panic and anxiety.

There standing at the door was none other than Ashton. He held a calm look. Mr. B excused me into the hallway.

Before I could react or say something to him, Derek along with a crowd of people came from my right side. Did all these people really ditch class to come here? I could taste my humiliation beginning to grow.

Ashton took out the same note that fell out of my locker. He cleared his throat and began to read my words infront of everyone. My heart sank and so did the expression on his face. He looked at me with disgust and distaste.

I never wrote anything after that day.

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I wiped the tears that came with the memory. I was stupid, I was naive, and I was fragile. This time around.. the only person getting hurt would be Ashton.