Always And Forever

Deja Vu part 3

⚠️curse words torture ⚠️

~kat's pov~
All I remember was them cuffing me then I passed out.

~memory~
I'm in a metal chair they start the machine up my head hurts so bad I start screaming in pain. They finally stop Pierce walks up to me who am I? Pierce asks. Motherfucker! I say as I spit in his face.

He punches me in face. Start it back up. Pierce says. It goes on and on and on the never ending pain, Electricuting my head constantly.

Another time
I remembered bucky and he will find me and kill all of you. I say gritting my teeth. Wipe her! Pierce says. Come on then! Bring it!! I yell. They electricute my head.

Another time crossbones walks in. No stay away from me I got my memories back! I yell.

He grabs me tries to drag me back to the chair I threw him across the room and men came in and shot me with dart gun. She remembers. Crossbones says. Wipe her! Pierce says.

~end of memory~

I jolt up breathing heavy. I look around and see bucky walking in. Doll you okay? Did you have a nightmare? Bucky asks.

Uhm a memory. I say. He walks in the cell. Do you wanna talk about it. Bucky says. You know you asked me how many times they wiped me. I say. Yeah. Bucky says.

That first day the got me back it went on for hours nonstop. I honestly lost count after like 4 or 5 times that's was just from the first time I tried so hard to hold on to my memories. I say with tears in my eyes.

Bucky pulls me into a hug. I'm so so sorry doll. Bucky says. Stop apologizing I did this to myself. I say. No you didn't stop blaming yourself. Bucky says. Okay then stop blaming yourself. I say. Okay. Bucky says sighing.

How's the wound? Bucky asks. Shit yall must of seen it. I say. Doll you passed out from losing so much blood. Bucky says with a concerned look.

You should've said something doll. Bucky says. I tried using my power to slow the bleeding but I was too weak. I say looking down.

He cups his hand on my cheek. Can I uhm kiss you? Bucky asks. Yes. I say. He lightly presses his lips on mine. I feel the sparks, it feels amazing.

I enter his mind for more memories of us. I see the first time we met in hydra. Then our first time we had sex we was both upset about something.

Another where we kissed in a gym us watching movies together and laughing. I exit his memories. I look into his ocean blue eyes.

Will you be honest with me about something? I ask. Of course, doll. Bucky says. Do you promise that you or the rest of the team never betrayed me. I say nervously.

Doll I swear on my life that none of us ever betrayed you baby we would never turn you over to hydra knowing what they done to you. Bucky says.

How did they find me? I ask. Sharon told them your location, she showed up that day you got kidnapped and got under your skin you had a nightmare and stuff happened you got upset with your self and went back to your old room by the time I got there you was gone. Bucky says with a sad look.

I remember what happen that day with the how I lost control of my power. I say. Please don't blame your self doll.

Please I know that you would never hurt anyone on purpose. Bucky says. I mean everything I've done now the team doesn't trust me. I say with tears in my eyes.

I start thinking about Nat and wanda and all the tears just start coming out, I can't stop them. Bucky pulls me in for another hug. Shh doll it'll be okay I'll talk to them. Bucky says.