Don't say, "I love you" | ✔️

XXVIII

It wasn't until late did things finally calm down. The sound of footsteps was still able to heard outside the door. Every so often, a banging would come followed by loud yelling.

Killua hugged his family close, as they snuggled together on the floor. He sweetly pressed a kiss on Gon's face.

"I'm sleepy.." Gon mumbled, with his face snug between the pillows.

Killua crashed his lips into Gon's again. "Can I just remember kissing you?" He didn't desire for this to end. But if he went out like this, he wanted his last moments to be with his lips locked with Gon's.

Gon feverishly pushed Killua away from him. "I'm SLEEPY."

"What does that have to do with me?" Killua whined. Hs white hair bounced as a smug look crossed his lips.

A crummy feeling kicked in Gon. He searched Killua's blue eyes, for comfort that he knew wasn't there. He knew Killua just couldn't wrap his mind around it.

Gon pushed the cover off and rose to his feet. "I need a break, okay? I'm stressed out and making out isn't making things easier." He kept his voice low so the other teens outside couldn't hear him.

Killua clicked his tongue, "What do you mean, that?" He made sure to emphasize the last word. A bit of distress being set loose from his voice as hysteria settled in.

"You KNOW!"

"No, I don't. If I KNEW, I wouldn't HAVE TO ASK you."

"Damn it! We talked about this."

"And I said, I changed! What's the problem? Why are you always having so many problems?"

"You KNOW WHAT YOU DID."

"I-ahh...uuuhh-umm...No?"

"No?" Gon's brown orbs melted like chocolate as his eyebrows gracefully knitted together. "Why is that always all you have to say for yourself?"

"If you want me to say something different...TELL ME WHAT TO SAY." Killua said, bluntly. He couldn't untangle the knot as to why his boyfriend was suddenly so wishy-washy.

Gon turned away without saying another word.

Killua sat up, his blue eyes narrowing as he watched him walk away. He wanted to plead, "Tell me what else, I need to fix and I'll fix it!" But Gon wouldn't listen to him. Beside Gon said himself he couldn't, "Trust a psychopath."

Killua sighed heavily and blinked up at the ceiling. He mumbled to himself, "I know, I'm not enough. I'm sorry. I try! Can you give me credit for trying?" Unconsciously, he chewed on his bottom lip, his hand trembling as he raised it slightly to skim over his boyfriend's skin. It was an act done timorously as he held his heart out for Gon to claim.

"Shut up, Killua! Sorry is not going to cut it! No more it's not!" Gon held a sob in the back of his throat. "Sometimes people keep telling you do things and you put it off. But there are deadlines!" He felt his legs start to wobble, uncomfortable with the situation.

"Deadlines? How was I supposed to know there was a deadline if no one told me?"

"You don't complain about deadlines, you move on, suck it up, and say thank you."

"Thanks for what?"

"For me having to waste my time on a failure like you."

Kalluto stirred in his sleep. He pulled a pillow over his head. "Ugh! Can you do this somewhere else?"

"No! Go back to sleep! We can argue where we want to argue! Damn it!" Killua fired back at his little brother.

Kalluto hastily sat up, kicking his cover off him to the side. His hair was wild and displaced over his purple eyes glaring between the two of them. "I get it. Families fight. But even when you fight, you still love each other." He rubbed his eyes, "This could be the end for us. Do you really want your end to be mad at each other?"