Kiss my scars <3 - Vinnie Hacker

FIFTEEN

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Thursday Nov.11th

                                     Alayas pov:

Three days of sulking. Not alone of course vinnie stayed. He insisted saying he had no plans anyways. He kept going on about wanting to make me feel better, I didn't really know what that meant until I woke up every morning for the past three days to vinnie in between my legs satisfying me like his life depended on it. (It was consensual🤍)

And I'm not gonna lie it did make me feel better.

I would return the favor after of course. But surprisingly we still haven't had sex. I don't know if it's cause Polos statement about breaking vinnies heart is constantly running through my mind or because I just simply don't want vinnie to get attached. Maybe it's both.

I mean it's for vinnies sake he deserves better. And by better I mean someone who's kind, nurturing, and doesn't rely on drugs to fix every single inconvenience in there life.

Im a mess. You'd think after three days we would've talked about our mishap the other day. But I haven't brought it up. I know he wants to talk. But I'm scared he's probably gonna ask for commitment or atleast a step in that direction.

But I simply can't do that. Not yet at least. Vinnies sweet and all but I don't even trust him yet it's not his fault I just haven't had the greatest experiences in the past. It's for the best.

But on a good note I made up with devy and I told her everything. It was kind of hard not to since vinnies arm was literally wrapped around me making it impossible for me to hide it on FaceTime.

Unless I didn't show my face at all but she would question that and I can't lie to her not anymore. I owe her that atleast.

As for polo there's been no words exchanged not that I want to anyways.... Well I will admit I miss him. I mean who wouldn't miss there best friend. Devy told me how he's been going to random parties for the past couple of nights. I would want an escape if I lost my best friend too but that's his fault. I have to realize that's not how a best friend should treat me.

Look I know that's pretty ironic coming from the girl that hangs up on her friends mid convo. But even with the attitude I may have at times I would never ghost my friend.

My best friend at that. And over a boy? Why couldn't he just tell me he liked me earlier. He did throw hints here and there but how am I supposed to know. We literally used to find hook ups for each other but now that this one may be staying a little longer there's a problem?

That's enough about that though fuck polo.

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"I've got a meeting at 4, it won't be long though probably a good hour. I can come back after and bring us dinner if you want." Vinnie says whilst rubbing my feet at the edge of the bed.

"You don't have to you're probably tired of me by now" I laugh. "I could never get tired of you Alaya" Vinnie looks at me and kisses my foot lightly while still messaging it.

"Ew." I say making vinnie laugh. "I thought we were having a moment." Vinnie pouts. "Yeah until you kissed my foot you weirdo"

"But we should talk vinnie like actually" vinnie gets visibly nervous as I mention this probably already knowing what I'm gonna say. "How about we leave it for dinner" he reply's.

"So now your the one trying to stay longer" I sit up on the headboard fixing my hair back into a bun. "What can I say. I like being around you Alaya" he blushes.