My Lover Boy <3 -Matty B. Sturniolo

10: Confess

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A whole week. A whole fucking week I spent distancing myself from the triplets. I was trying to use the excuse of seeing my mom a lot this week but in reality I was avoiding the problem at stake.

I'm absolutely and incredibly in love with Matthew Bernard Sturniolo.

It's Friday night, 10:27pm and I'm on a drive by myself to clear my head. I've been driving for a half an hour now and I'm on my way home. All of a sudden Sparks by Coldplay comes on and I fucking lose it.

Tears are streaming down my face and I'm just letting the sobs go. I don't even know why I'm crying at this point.

I text Matt and ask if he's home and he says he's home alone. Perfect.

It take me ten minutes of sobbing but I finally pull into his driveway and get out. I don't even knock on the door I just come in.

With a sniffle I meet Matt in the kitchen. It's silent for a second.

"What's wrong?" I can tell he's fighting the urge to come to me until I tell him what is making me feel this way.

"I love you Matt." I comes out in a raspy whisper.

"Well you know I love you too Tate-"

"No. I love you. Like the type of love that's suffocating because all you want to do is be around them all the time. The type of love that makes you want to wake up every morning because it means you get to see them and make them smile. The type of love that makes you want to be a better person for them. The type of love that feels like butterflies are attacking you from the inside. The type of love that makes you not able to stand being by them because it makes you nervous. I love you Matt." Tears cascade down my face again.

"I don't think you understand how long I've been waiting to hear you say that." In just three long strides he makes his way over to me and his hands are covering my cheeks.

His warm lips are on mine and they match like a puzzle piece. Like whoever created the universe specifically designed that me, Tate Morgan could only fit my lips perfectly with Matthew Sturniolo. Because when our lips meet everything is silent. I forget everything. I forget how much my heart felt shattered, I forget that I need to breathe. Because Matt is my oxygen, and my words, and my emotions.

His lips let go of mine but god do I wish they were still attacking them. His forehead rests on mine.

"Do you know how long I've wanted this Tate? How long I've been dreaming about telling you I love you?" He lifts his head up so I can see him properly but never once does he let me go. "I've been so fucking in love with you. With everything you do. The way you smile, the way you laugh, the way we just coexist on the same earth but I'm lucky enough to be in your life and know you the way I do." The tears gently slip down my cheeks but he doesn't waste a single second wiping them away.

"Not only do I want to be your first everything Tate, I intend to be all your lasts." His lips meet mine again and it feels even better than the first one. "Because I love you and I believe that we were made to love each other." Kiss. Kiss. Kiss.

We kiss until our lips hurt.

"What does this make us?" I ask the hard question.

"I will be whatever you want. But I'm not giving you away anytime soon." He gives the brightest smile which makes it light on my face.

"Okay." I whisper. "I want to be yours and I want you to be mine but I need to figure out a couple things for myself too. I'm not letting you go but I want to keep this to just us right now." He nods his head and wraps his arms around my shoulders, embracing me in a hug.

"Is this why you've been avoiding us all week?"

"To be honest yeah. I've been trying to run away from my feelings and it got to the point where it was suffocating so I was trying to breathe for a minute." He nods his head understanding.

"Stay here tonight. With me." I nod my head.

"Okay."

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And so I spent the night in Matt's room and we talked about everything that came to mind. Anything and everything. We kissed. We talked. We hugged. We cuddled. It feels so relieving to know how he feels and that it's out in the air now. But it's gonna be hard having to hide it from everyone.

Even though it was my choice I like the thought of me and Matt having something to ourselves. Something that is private and personal. Something that's just ours. Like a cute little secret.

I love loving Matt.

I woke up this morning wrapped in Matt's arms. The sun was just barley leaking through his curtains. His hair was a mess. He had absolutely no tension lines. He looked so calm and peaceful. Like he had no care in the world.

I try to turn lightly so that I could be laying on my stomach. I raked my fingers through Matt's hair pushing it backwards. I left a couple kisses on his chin, and his jaw, all the way up to his cheeks.

I also love kissing Matt. I've only kissed a people in my life but nothing compares to the way it feels to kiss Matt. Kissing him is like going down the huge hill of a rollercoaster.

"I could wake up to this everyday." Matt says sleepily. His morning voice is so cute.

"Me too." I whisper. He stirs a little bit and he finally opens his eyes causing me to smile. We lay in bed staring at each other for a little bit before we decide that we should get up and see everyone in the kitchen.

When we make it down to the kitchen Nick and Chris are sitting at the counter on their phones talking about plans for the day.

"Good morning sleepy head. Oh I didn't know you were here, good morning Tate." Nick smiles and waves.

"Good morning. What's the plan for today?" I look into the fridge and grab the orange juice, pouring myself a cup.

"Me and Nick want to go to a haunted house and film it for YouTube."

Oh lord.

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I hope you liked this chapter. I am in love with it holy shit. Tell me how you feel.

Also next chapter I think I'm gonna base the haunted house after the sister squad video. So Emma will be Tate, James will be Nick, Ethan will be Matt, and Grayson will be Chris.

I feel like I do this every chapter but you guys are fucking inSANE WITH 7k HOLY SHITARONI!!

I love you all so much. Have a great weekend. I'll try to get a chapter out tomorrow and if not then the day after possibly.

QOTC: are you a day or night person? I personally am a night person.

Choose love always <3

-A