I woke up the next morning to a thunderstorm. How perfect, describes my mood well. I laid there in bed thinking about everything that has happened within the last 24 hours. I didn't want to go back to that school ever again. Maybe mom could get someone to homeschool me or something, anything just so I don't have to go back. I can't tell her whats going on, or else she will take away my computer and everything. I'm scared, and I feel so alone. Its a saturday and yet I have nothing to do. I got up out of bed to take a hot shower. I got in, and turned on the hot shower. I stood there, letting the hot shower pour over me. I wanted to melt away into the thin air, be far far away from everything and everyone. I wanted my Dad back, I needed him here to tell me everything will be okay.
When I got out of the shower, I tossed on my bathrobe and sat on my bed. I had no energy what so ever to put on clothes, and I had no reason too. I laid on my bed in my robe for what seemed like hours. I finally decided I should get up a bit. I got dressed, not caring what I wore, and picked up my cellphone. I needed someone to talk too and Amanda was the only one who could understand right now.
"Hello?"
"Hey manda."
"Oh.. Hi Chloe. You okay?"
"I'm okay. I just need my bestfriend right now. Can you come over?"
"Uh, I actually have plans... sorry Chloe. Maybe I can stop by later?"
"Oh.. what are you doing?"
"I'm going to the movies with a few people.."
"Movies? With who?
"Umm, James."
"Oh."
"I will stop by later though, I promise!"
"Don't bother."
And with that I hung up on her. How could she even do that to me? He asked ME to hangout, not HER. And now all of a sudden she's all over him? I can't handle any of this anymore. I ran downstairs to look for my mom. I needed her more than anything.
"MOM!"
"In the living room honey."
"Mom, I need you" I sobbed.
I walked over and crawled into her lap, crying my eyes out. She wrapped her arms around me, whispering soothing words into my ear, and brushed my hair softly.
"Baby, what's wrong? Are you okay?"
"I need you Mama. Everything is just going downhill for me. I just want to run away and never look back."
"Honey, tell me everything that happened. The real reason you ran away yesterday."
And so I spilled the beans to her. I told her everything, from James, and Sandra, to Amanda and that I saw Dad. She sat there, listening to me, trying to comfort me as I bawled my eyes out.
"Mama, I just want to get away for a while. Somewhere I don't know anybody, so I can forget about all of this."
"Well, I think you should really think about going to Camp Chloe.Take that chance to get away from everyone and to just relax with peope you don't know. I know you will make plenty of new friends. Just put yourself out there honey."
I sighed. I knew she was right. "I guess you're right. I'll think about it. But can I still go to the concert? I really need to see them mom."
I put on my puppy dog eyes as she stared at me laughing. "I guess that would be okay."
My eyes widened with excitement. I jumped up and gave her the biggest hug ever. "Thank you thank you thank you mama!"
"Just promise me one thing."
"Anything!"
"Try your best to not let things get to you. I don't want to see you hurting baby"
Too late for that. "Okay, I'll try" I lied. Truth it, I knew it wouldn't get that much better.
I decided I didn't want to go on the Europe trip. Being stuck with all those idiots for that long would be completely miserable. I could barely manage getting to my locker without feeling sick to my stomach.
"I have an idea."
"What's that?" I asked.
"Let's go shopping, get you some new clothes you can wear to camp, and an outfit for the concert. What do you say? You up for it?"
"YES!" I squealed.
I ran upstairs to my room to get ready, and ran right back down.
"IM READY!" I shouted. I heard my mom laughing at me, as she walked to the front door.
"Wait.. what about Kevin?" I asked.
" He already went over to Benji's house."
"Okay, well then what are standing around here for , lets go!"
While driving to the mall, I popped in the boy's Take Me Home album, and put on Kiss Me. I started singing along to them, and then mom joined in. She started dancing and belting out the lyrics. I laughed and joined along with her.
"Oh god. If only I was a few years younger, I'd be all over that smashing Harry Styles."
"MOM! He's MINE!" I laughed.
"Yeah, but I heard he likes them cougars" she joked.
I laughed along with her. Sometimes she could be so funny and laid back. That was the side of her I really most enjoyed, and I remember dad told me that was the side he always saw in her. I smiled at the thought. We finally reached the mall, and excitement roared through my body. I just hope I don't see anyone from school there.
"Lets start out at Urban Behaviour and make our way around." She said.
And with that I followed right beside her as we entered the mall together. When we walked inside the store, all you could see was colour, everywhere. We walked around picking out different items for what seemed like forever, until we settled on some blouses, tank tops, shirts, a skirt, and some leggings. As we were heading out of the store, I saw the perfect outfit in a window display outside of Forever 21. I squealed and rushed to the display. My mom joined me as we stared at the display. It was a beautiful white lace dress, with a leather jacket, and a gold chain with a gold diamond heart at the end of it, and black studded booties.
"Mom, I want that whole outfit!"
"Well it definitely suits you."
"So I can get it?!" I asked getting excited.
She laughed. "Yes, go for it."
I ran inside almost imediately and snatched all the items displayed. Satisfied with my shopping trip we decided to get some frozen yogurt at Yoyo's.
On our way home, we were quiet, listening to the boys singing Moments, the song I can relate to well most.
"Mom?"
"Hmmm?"
"I just want to say thank you for everything. Not just everything you've done today, but for my entire life. I know it hasn't been easy doing it all on your own, and I haven't made it any easier, but I just wanna let you know that I love you and I appreciate everything."
She looked over to me, her eyes watering, as she smiled. "You're welcome honey. And thank you for helping us get through it all"
I smiled back at her, and we continued to listen to the songs all throughout the drive back home.
