it ends with us ¹ DISCONTINUED

05

RUE HAD SPENT THE LAST WEEK AT JADON'S PLACE, SHE HAD MANAGED TO GO back to her apartment that she once shared with Adam to collect some of her belongings. She made sure that he wouldn't be there when she went over, she knew that when she went over he would be at his friends house since that is where he would be most of the day. She now sat on the couch going through the small shoe box filled with pictures, all the pictures with Adam she would put in a pile to throw out. She was so fixated with one picture that she didn't hear Jadon come into the room. Rue didn't realise that she was crying until she could taste the salty tears, she quickly wiped them away when Jadon came and sat down next to her.

"Do you want to go back to him?" Jadon finally asked the question he has been wanting to ask ever since he met Rue. She stared down at the picture that sat on her lap, she doesn't say yes but she doesn't say no. "I feel like i will never be able to trust him again. But a huge part of me grieves what i had with him. Or what i thought i had with him. We were so good together. The times i spent with him were some of the best moments of my life. And occasionally i feel like i don't want tp give that up."

Rue wipes the tears away with the sleeve of her top, "Sometimes, when i'm missing him, i tell myself maybe it wasn't that bad. Maybe i could put up with him when he is at his worst just so i can have him when he is at his best."

"I called my mum when i was in the car on the way to the club, she told me, 'the last thing you want to do is loose sight of your limit.'

"What does she mean?" Jadon asked, he puts his hand on top of her own and rubs his thumb back and forth. "We all have a limit. What we are willing to put up with before we break. When i first started dating Adam, i knew exactly what my limit was. But slowly, with every incident, my limit was pushed a little more. And a little more. The first time he hit me, he was immediately sorry. He swore it would never happen again. The second time he hit me, he was even more sorry. The third time it happened, it was more than a hit. It was a beating. And every single time, i took him back. But the fourth time, it was only a slap. And when that happened, i felt relived. I remember thinking, 'at least he didn't beat me this time. That wasn't so bad.'"

Jadon gets up and goes to the kitchen, coming back with a box of tissues. Rue brings the tissue up to her eyes and says, "every incident chips away at your limit. Every time you choose to stay, it makes the next time that much harder to leave. Eventually, you loose sight of your limit altogether, because you start to think, 'i lasted one year. What's one more?"

Jadon grabs her hands, turning her face to face him, he gently wipes the tears that had fallen. "You believe that he loves you, and i am sure he does. But he is not loving you the right way. He doesn't love you the way you deserve to be loved. If he truly does love you, he would never allow you to take him back. That is the type of love that you deserve Rue."

"I'm scared." Rue admits. Jadon brings her into his side, playing with the ends of her hair. "What are you scared of, baby?" He asked gently, "I'm scared that he is gonna find me and he's gonna give me the same speech he always does, that he never meant it. That it was my fault that he hit me. That i drove him to do it. And i will believe everything that he says and i will take him back. But this time i am scared because.. i feel like if i take him back this time.. that i really won't make it out alive."

"Don't think he loves you because he keeps coming back. That man loves the power he has over you. He knows you will take him back." Jadon finally speaks, kissing her forehead. "No women should be taught that love is how much shit you can tolerate from a man. Of course he is gonna come back and appear ready this time. He knows your heart is thinking this time.. this time he'll be who he promised, this time his effort will be there and this time it's going to work. The truth is he keeps coming back because he doesn't want this time to be the time you find someone else that opens your eyes and makes this time his last time."

"I think you need to just close the fucking chapter on him even if it was long enough to be a fucking novel itself. You have cried over this boy so many times before, when are you going to put yourself first? When you were little would you have ever wished this for yourself? Why are you putting yourself through this? You are so fucking important and he is a fucking idiot who didn't deserve to know you the way he did. Let him go, let him go, let him go. There is nothing more you can do."

MACKENZIE SPEAKS

I started writing this an hour ago and I have just finished it. This may be the quickest I have ever finished a chapter before. I have a plan for the next chapter and I can't wait to start writing it and for you all to read it. I will probably start writing it tonight while I wait and watch euphoria. Has anyone been watching it? What is your thoughts on the new season? Also if you haven't already I suggest you watch Malcolm and Marie on Netflix! It is such a great fucking film!

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