Mismatched

Chapter Two- Messed Up

Jackie A. Spencer 18 Years in Age- POV

*Past*

I don't know what to say. Honestly though I don't think I was even meant to happen. I have major mental issues thanks to Brittia, who was drinking when she was pregnant with me. I also have anger issues that come from both sides of my family. So I am pretty messed up, and so is my whole entire family. My brother Joe is in jail, for battery by attacking a drug dealer after the he got ripped off. Brittia is an alcohol addict, and will never stop drinking, even though she says she's going to. I don't have anyone in my life and I never will, because I'm not capable of love anymore. I used to love someone... it was my dad Robert Johnson, but he died seven years ago, when I was eleven, and that's when I realized that he was the only one in the entire world who would ever love me. I also had a best friend named Christina, but she moved three years ago, and I haven't seen her since. I think she moved on purpose because she was tired of being friends with a "mental" girl. I will always be that weird mental patient to people, when it wasn't even my fault! It was all Brittia's fault! I wish she knew how I felt, that I think she wrecked my entire life, and that she is never going to be my mom. All she is ever going to be to me is the person who gave birth to me and that's all! Because the true definition of mother is "a woman who is in relation or adopted relation to the child she takes care of", and Brittia has never once done anything like that to me!