Vengeance Of Ideals (Career Series #4)

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Trigger Warning: Death

Huling Sandali - December Avenue

Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig sa nabasa ko. Ang bilis ng nangyayari! I froze and was just standing, holding the letter. 

Troy......Troy......bakit ganito?

Why did you put me in this situation? nakakainis ka naman!

Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko nanghina ako bigla. The Azariella before, the fragile, good girl, kind, loving went back again. Nakaramdam ako ng malaking pagsisisi.

I saw a car approaching and it was Gillan and my other 3 friends. They went to me and hugged me. 

"Kaya mo pa? Pupunta ba tayo?"

"We heard the news and he's in critical stage already." Gill sadly informed.

What Gill said made me weaker. Mas nanghina ako at nanglupaypay pero what if....he will....die already without him seeing me? That's what he wanted 'di ba?

"Kaya mo 'yan Azari, kapit lang."

We went to the address of the hospital and I was hell shaking. Inaalalayan ako ng mga kaibiga ko papasok sa loob until we reached the room. Everyone was there...... may cancer nga siya..... he has........

Hindi ko alam paano ako magpapakita pagkatapos ng ginawa kong pagrerebelde without even thinking of my actions. They were all talking to Troy until he saw me. Mas lalo akong nanlupaypay at gusto ko nalang bumagsak. Nanghina ako. Tears started to fall from my eyes.

How dare myself after doing my revenges ako pa iiyak huh?

I saw Blaise walking  outside with a no expression face. Her eyes were red.

"Wag ka muna makiaway please lang." Aira said.

"Hinahanap ka....ni Troy." She said without looking at me. 

I was very hesistant because they all know what I did and nahihiya ako for that.

Did I regret it? 

maybe.

Hindi ko yata kakayanin humarap sakanila, I'm weak.

"I-" I breathed heavily and my heart pounded.

"Bakit hindi kana lang pumasok ha? Azariella malapit na siya mamatay!" Blaise shouted at me. "Ikaw tong nagrevenge sakanya tapos ikaw tong hindi magpapakita?" 

My tears started to fall.

"Dapat nga magagalit kami lahat sayo dahil sa pagpapatanggal mo sa lisensya niya, sa pag pabagsak ng law firm na kaisa isang pangarap niya pero hindi na namin ginawa kasi ayaw ni Troy! Gusto kana niya makita kaya gawin mo nalang please!" She cried.

I was shaking while walking inside. Her mom was about to go to me but his dad stopped her. 

"T....Troy....." Nanginginig na sabi ko. "I don't know...." i said. I started to cry already. I touched his hand and mas nanghina lang ako. It's been more than 7 years since the last time I touched him. "I'm......I'm.....sorry!" I cried louder and sobbed.

"Pagkatapos ng ginawa mo sorry lang sasabihin mo?!" 

"Mom please stop." Troy said and looked back to me.

"Troy I'm sorry!" I caressed his hand. "Hindi ko alam! I didn't know that this happen.... I should have just.......prevent myself." I sobbed. "Sorry sa lahat, I broke your dream.... Hindi ko alam na the law firm signifies something..." I kissed his hand.

He chuckled. "It's okay, I understand that. You have the reason to get revenge on and it's my fault since the beginning." He smiled at me. "It's fine with me, makita lang kita bago ako mawala masaya na ako dun. As long as I was able to see the person I loved the most."

"But what about that? Troy you won't die okay!" I assured him. "No one will die right now! Please don't die!" I screamed in pain. "I regret doing all of this.....Kung sana hindi ako nagrebelde edi hindi ka umabot sa ganito."

"No don't lame yourself love.......I'll die anyway kahit hindi mo ginawa 'yon."

"Bakit kaba kasi nagkasakit?' I asked.

"He just started to have his symptoms and found out na nagkaroon na siya ng gan'yan. It was probably he started smoking back then." His dad explained.

"Troy I'm regretting everything already through my sincerest heart, please forgive me. Lumuhod ako sa harap niya. "I'm sorry....wala akong magawa."

"You have nothing to be sorry off, wala kang kasalanan okay? You're just Azariella at wala kang kinalaman sa sakit ko."

"But- Troy!"

"Shhhh." He whispered." I'm just happy to see you again love....seeing my endgame na hindi pinalad." He joked.

"Stop joking please!" Pinatong ko ang mukha ko sa balikat niya habang nakahiga siya. 

"I'm just making you happy." He smiled at me. "Wala kang kasalanan okay? Always remember that, wala kang kasalanan and even when I already say goodbye, I will still love you okay?"

"Troy!" I cried louder. Everyone was already crying in the room.

"I love you so much okay? Always remember that but I hope you'll find someone better okay? When I'm gone, promise me you will be happy always, promise me that you'll find a man that will love you unconditionally. Basta sumaya ka lang, 'yan lang hinihiling ko bago ako mawala at sana 'wag mo sisihin sarili mo sa nangyari please? Wala kang kinalaman at kasalanan and you have the reason to start the revenge on mine. Late ko sinabi ang nangyari because duwag ako."

"Troy....ikaw lang ang mahal ko... I won't find someone okay?" I said. "Just please don't leave me now." I wiped my tears away."

"I love you so much, my ceo, Azariella, thank you for being here, I'm more than satisfied now...farewell." Bigla na siyang bumitaw sa kapit ko and the line on the monitor went straight.

"No! no! Hindi! Troy!" I shouted! "Everyone was crying already and the doctors and nurses went inside."

"Time of death 5:34pm Troy Deighniel Gutierrez"

"Troy! Hindi! Bakit mo ako iniwan?! Troy!" I was already crying so bad and my friends went to me and hugged. "Fuck! Troy! Ang abogado ko!"

Troy!

Troy!

My vision went black.

My lawyer, the person I took care of, ang minahal ko sa buhay ko, wala na.

he completely left the world. Iniwan na niya ako.

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