Today Joshua was leaving the hospital. Joshua and I are holding hands as we walk through the halls of the hospital we've been at for the past couple of days.
As soon as we get out of outside. Fans and people with cameras start to take pictures of us and I quickly let his hand go. I didn't know this at the time but me doing this really hurt Joshua.
I just didn't want anyone assuming anything that wasn't real.
We get to my car and I drive Joshua home.
We get to Joshua house and it's exactly how I remember it was. "Wow I haven't been here in a long time." I say. "Uh yeah." Josh says and sits down on his couch.
I noticed that Joshua was a little upset I don't understand why? "Are you okay?" I asks sitting next to him. "Yeah." He says moving over away from me. "Are you sure." I ask taking his hand into mine. He quickly pulls his hand away from me. "Yes." He says and pulls out his phone.
"Look I did something or said-"
"You know what's funny Jupiter-" He used my full name. He only ever calls me Jupiter if something is wrong or if he is serious. "- you act like you still love me when we're texting or on FaceTime. And at the hospital you act like you care. But as soon as we're in public you want to act like you don't even know me. Do you realize that hurts people. You can't just go around acting like you care and love people because someone will start to believe and will hurt like hell when it comes out as not true." Joshua says and my eyes get watery.
"I'm sorry-"
"Oh great, now your crying." Joshua say. I quickly wiped my tears and got up and left.
I get to my cry and start sobbing. I drive home and immediately get into bed.
