the locker room

dreams down the drain

So I know I said this was going to be the party chapter but I felt the need to add this part in. Have a wonderful day!

-ski

p.s. I didn't really pre read it before posting so im sorry in advance for anything that might be wrong with it.

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After 5th period I waited by my car for the girls to get out of art. The sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach was making me rethink this whole party. It was too late to cancel the party though… I was racking my brain trying to think of ways to get Anna to like me the same way I like her. Trying to keep the guys away from her weren’t working obviously. It’s not like I love her or anything because that’s just a fallacy, right? Yeah parker god what are thinking?! You’ve witnessed your own parents “marriage”. They don’t work and someone always gets hurt.

“Parker, are you alright?” Anna came up behind me and rested her hand on my back in an endearing way.

“Uh, yeah. Sorry just tired” I gave her a weak smile to see if she could by it but by the look on her face she didn’t at all.

“Okay if you say so. Are you ready to go?” she smiled up at me at the sight of her smile I smiled just as wide.

“Yeah let’s go home” I opened the door for her and Kelc to get in.

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“hey girls hey parker” my mom was just walking past the foyer with tons of papers in her hand and her hair was in a mess from working I presumed. She gave Anna a big hug.

“hey Linda. Thanks for letting Kelcie come over” she gave a warm smile to my mom. My mom was absolutely in love with Anna. They have become really close ever since she came to live with us. Ever since that first night when Anna and I slept together we have slept in each other’s beds every night. One night I woke up late at night to find Anna missing and when I went searching for her I found her and my mom talking about well...everything. I was so happy that Anna felt comfortable enough to go to my mom when she has a problem. I just wish that I could be for her like that.

I know I contribute to Anna being healthy just because when she did try to sleep in her own bed without me she had terrible nightmares that she woke up screaming. I hated her feeling so scared.

“Oh please! I love having girls in the house and this is your house too you know” she beamed at Anna like a proud mom. “Well it was nice to meet you Kelcie. I have to get back to work”

“Yeah nice to meet you miss Taylor”

“Please call me Linda, ‘Miss Taylor’ makes me feel old. Parker when you’re done here I want to talk to you in the study” she looked at me like I was in trouble but I had no idea what I had done wrong.

“okay?”

“what was that about?” Anna looked at me quizzically as Kelcie just went around the room touching things and muttering to herself how much all this must have cost.

“I actually have no idea” we both snickered a little before I got down to business “Okay so people will probably start coming over around 11 or something but you don’t have to come down until later if you guys want” I had turned my attention to the two girls as Kelcie was gushing about how amazing our house was.

“Okay we’ll come down later I guess. Come on Kelcie lets go to my room” she turned away from me and dragged Kelcie up the stairs by her arm.

I went to the study to talk to my mom honestly a little worried. I stood outside the door a second hesitant to knock or just go in when my mom broke through my mental debate in my head “Parker, are you coming in or not?” I heard my mom’s voice through the other side of the door.  I felt my cheeks get hot. Damn she is creepy with that 6th sense thing.

“So what did you want to talk to me about?” she pointed for me to have a seat on the other side of the desk facing her. Wow she is really formal… this must be serious.

She took off her glasses and rubbed the bridge of her nose and yawning. She is working all the time especially when my dad is gone to pick up the slack and I feel sort of ashamed that I’m just realizing how tired and exasperated she really was “Anna is a really nice and very attractive girl. Wouldn’t you agree with me?”.

She wanted to talk about Anna? “Yeah?” she rolled her eyes at my response.

“Well do you agree or not Parker James?” oh the middle name not good. I kind of flexed back from the first and middle name being spoken.

“Yes, yes I do” I said in all honesty. I can tell this conversation is going to get awkward really quick.

“Then why the hell are you guys not together? That girl is a once in a lifetime girl Parker, you will not find another girl like that” she softened her look and gave a slight smile.

“I don’t know. I don’t think she likes me in that way…I know she’s not like other girls” I ran my hand through my hair in awkwardness. “She’s I don’t know mom. It’s hard to explain”

She has a huge smile on her face now and all signs of vexation gone. “yeah love is hard to explain”  she shrugs and looks down at her papers.

Love? Uh no, no I don’t love her. “Love?” I asked questioningly. “Uh no, I don’t love her mom. Love doesn’t even exist” I looked at her in a duh expression. I mean hello look at her marriage and well practically all of her friends.

She looked up from the mountain of papers. With a sad expression on her face “Parker I am so sad for you that you think like that. Do you think I don’t love you?” hurt was thick in her voice.

“No of course not but you can love family just not other people it’s just an attraction” I was bored with this conversation already but I could see the disappointment in my mothers eyes.

“Well I can see nothing will change your mind but possibly someone besides myself can one day change your mind. That’s all well besides you know the rules for the party no one is allowed on the third level and definitely not in mine on the second and no one in the garage. Most importantly you know if they drink they absolutely do not drive”

“Yeah I know mom don’t worry. The whole school knows your rules” I got up from the chair a opened the door up. “Wait!” she called from her desk. “I know this isn’t an appropriate time but you are either going to Asia with him after you graduate to work for the company or you are…”

“Yeah cut off I know mom” I said icily “tell him don’t worry I’ll do as he wants”

“Parker…I am sorry I-“.  I slammed the door before she could finish. I got up to the stairs as my heart was racing because of the anger I felt. I have to give up any dreams of playing baseball because of my dad. Wow such a good guy. I could hear Anna laugh from the hallway and it instantly calmed me down. I guess I should try and take a nap before the party because I can tell it’s going to be a long night….