𝙍𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙧𝙘𝙤𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧|𝑋𝑜𝑙𝑜 𝑀𝑎𝑟𝑖𝑑𝑢𝑒𝑛̃𝑎

✈︎ 30 ✈︎

                                      Xolo's POV
"Flight to Miami, Florida now boarding. Flight to Miami , Florida now boarding " I heard over the loud speaker. My mom and I have been waiting at our airport gate for about 30 minutes now. We should be boarding in less than an hour.

This airport is colder than usual, they are legit blasting the AC. I slipped on my black hoodie and put up my hood , laying back in my chair . I am so tired , I feel so dead. I couldn't get any sleep last night because I was thinking about Jules. On top of that I cried my eyes out this morning when we were talking.

I am so relieved that we finally made up and that she decided to forgive me. I seriously thought that she wasn't gonna forgive me and that I officially lost her. That's why I was crying so hard and I knew that I wouldn't see her for months so I couldn't even try to fix it in person. She could have easily ignored my texts and blocked me , realizing all of that , thinking about all those possibilities , it made me cry.

I've never cried that hard in my life.. I care about her so much. Even though she forgave me , I know that she's still hurt.. my apology could only do so much. I wish that I could fix that. I wish that I could take all her pain away , all her tears. I don't like seeing her cry , it killed me seeing her like that and knowing that I'm the cause of it...

The only thing that I can do is make it up to her over time.. and I also can't do anything that would make her feel led on. Im not going to act different around her or treat her different , it doesn't even weird me out that she has feelings for me . That's not the issue. I just mean that , I can't do anything that will make her feel led on, I can't kiss her again , I can't tell her she's beautiful because even tho it's the truth , I have to be careful with her feelings. I can't do anything that may seem romantic or make it seem like I like her . I will not make the mistake of leading her on and hurting her again.

Maybe us being away from each other will help her get over those feelings ? Because I really  don't want her to keep feeling hurt over me .. I want her to be okay. I want us to not run until a problem like that ever again.

Feelings are not something to be playing around with and I don't want to hurt her like that ever again. I don't wanna be the cause of her pain.  I'm so happy that we made up and i really hope that she gets this role so that I can see her soon and we can have fun filming together.

"Honey , do me a favor and go get us some Dunkin. I am starving " My mom snapped me out of my thoughts as she extended her hand out , handing me the money. Finallyyyy, food. I am so hungry.

"Thank youuu, what would you like ma'am?" I smiled as I happily took her money. I already know what I'm getting. I'm getting avocado toast, a chocolate donut , and a black ice coffee.

"I'll text you what I want , just go now before we have to board " my mom rose her hand in dismissal. I quickly walked over to the Dunkin Donuts ,down the gate . There's about 4 people in front of me , I hope it moves fast because we board in 20 minutes. Plus I'm starving , I didn't eat all morning.
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Jules's POV
I looked into the bathroom mirror , leaning my hands on the counter. The reflection of my tear stained face staring back at me. The amount of tears that I've cried from last night to this morning is insane. I am so drained and tired . But most of all relieved that Xolo and I made up, that we're good. Regardless of how hurt or sad I still feel , I don't want to lose him. He's important and I don't want to throw our friendship away over this.

If the only way I can have him is as a best friend , as much as it sucks , I'll take that over not having him at all. No more falling for Xolo , I can take this time apart from him to get over these feelings. I really have to work on that and just focus on myself. I don't want us to fight about this ever again and I don't wanna feel hurt anymore. I'm tired of wanting to be liked by him and tired of holding on to the hope that we could possibly become something more , it's all draining.