The words I wish I would've told you.

to b.j.e.

I haven't texted you
in a year

I haven't heard your voice
since Christmas

I haven't had a genuine
conversation with you
in two years.

I love how
you can't t look me in the eye
at Christmas dinner
or when you pass by me at school
you forget we're family.

I even learned to love
how you hate me.

You got older
and to you
I haven't matured.

There are so many times I needed you,
but you left.