The words I wish I would've told you.

to rbs,

when we met,
we were young.
really young.
like six.

we did everything together
went everywhere together
my parents loved you
i loved you.

when we held hands
as a joke,
i wish you
would've had
the adrenaline rush
that i did.

and when you
hugged me,
i wish i could've
held on a bit longer.
even though the hug was
too long as is.

when we stopped being friends,
i acted calm. civil i guess.
but you'll never know
the hell i went through
after i lost you.