For Now.... Forever

Epilogue

I was feeling so alone in this cold breezy night on this terrace.

I also commit mistakes which surely cost my heart.

I love someone but that someone leave me alone.

I was again alone.

That someone came back again in my life in just blink of an eye that it was almost unbelievable.

But that someone came back to make matter worst.

I'm so silly that someone means me more than I thought it would be.

After all, that someone was the only one I hoped for.

That someone drives me so crazy with that love in his eyes that it almost felt like we were meant to be together.

I knew from start I don't deserve happy endings but looking at that someone make me escape the that bitter truth

And almost made me believe that maybe if I hoped high and try my best maybe we can make our story a happily ever after.

But it was just a maybe from the very beginning.

I lost hope, I lose trust,I lose beautiful memories, I lose a full piece heart and I lose that someone.

I don't want to smile but those dreamy stars I'm looking at reminded me our one part of our happy memories.

I still remember, I was laying my head in Lucas shoulder with a little smile playing on lips as we both looked at stars.

We went out for hiking but as night came we couldn't find any signals and got lost in the woods.

We make the tent, he did some barbeque while I was looking so adoringly at him.

I made some jokes who came out more like a serious talk which only get laughed by him while making barbeque.

We ate in moonlight.

After eating, I snuggled up in his embrace and we both admire the stars quietly.

But that moment I was admiring two things, those stars and him.

I felt like the most happy woman moment.those time was happy time. It's called happy time for some reason that it only lasts for short time. So live in it before sad storm arrive at your perfect life.

God! I miss that memory.

Now, I'm still look it at stars but this time not snuggled up in that someone's embrace.

This time alone....

But that shit was not bothering me this time.

I heard someone clearing throat.

I broke my gaze from stars and turned around to look at Him.

That someone.

A husband.

My love.

My happy memories.

Also my worst memories.

He started back at with guilt and a love in his eyes?

"Oh! I'm glad you came. I was about to call you to come over"

He looked so confused and open his mouth to say something but I interrupted.

"Don't, this time I will speak you listen" I said.

He gave me reassuring eyes to go on.

Something definitely wrong today with.

"I love you from moment I saw you till now. You showed I could love someone and look forward to expect more. Then you leave me and said those painful words you and that was an act"

I paused.

"I was acting rude that day ,was an act. I love you. I hope that day never came but it did"

"Never in million years I thought I would meet you again but we did. You married me. I as much as I denied that time I won't marry you"

"Also can't deny I thought universe has made us for each other but it turned out a complete lie. I lived on expectation and hope but you never did"

" But this time I don't feel anything and this time I feel a lot better "

He looked with so hurt before he could process what's going.

I gave him a quick smile that don't reach my eyes.

I turned around and ran and jumped off from the building.

I heard him yell. "No!!! "

He was about to jump but his bodyguards grabbed him.

I closed my eyes, flash a big smile.

Letting my arms free in the force of air hitting my back every second.

Author's point of view-

She is beautiful, she looked so beautiful in that white chiffon dress flying with rhythm of pressure of air.

She let her arms free letting the the death embrace her completely.

She is not in pain, not broken, not hurt.

She is relieved.

She feel relieved that the blessing people call life ended.

Gravity did its best.

It pulled her more closer towards the ground and her body finally hit the ground.

Her eyes were half opened but dead.

Her lifeless body is soon circled but lot of people including that someone she used to call love of her life.

Everyone was scared, shocked and he was devastated and crying.

Everyone showed different emotions but she showed none.

A beautiful girl with a broken heart, a billion dollar smile leave the world behind for now. . . . .Forever.

The end