𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐌|| 𝐊𝐀𝐑𝐋𝐍𝐀𝐏𝐈𝐓𝐘 || 𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐒𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐋 𝐀𝐔

backstabbers.

TW: throwing up, guilt, crying, thoughts of suicide, fainting / passing out, dizziness, trouble breathing, stress, panic attacks.

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sapnap pov ( when school starts)

I walk in the doors of the school and it already felt wrong, i felt sick to my stomach walking in school. everyone was minding their business but it felt like everyone's eyes were on me, me only. my chest felt tight as i walked to my locker and put in the code. i grabbed my folder and slipped in my homework. i checked my phone. " 7:45 AM, Monday" i had 15 minutes till class, great what am i gonna do now? just as i was thinking hannah put a note on the shelf of my locker, it was a small peice of ripped papper. i flipped it over and it read " prom?" i smiled. i flipped to note over and wrote " yes :) <3 " ill give it to her in lunch

i put it by my stuff. great, i heard karl, george, and alexs voices get louder as they approached me. i ignored the voices of them and continued putting my stuff up. " what the hell do you mean alex?" george said laughing. " i mean what i said!" alex said opening his locker. karl didnt talk to me, not even a breath near me as he was getting his stuff. he grabbed his stuff and walked to  alex looking mad as hell. " hey alex im gonna get going with karl! bye!" geroge said walking off with karl. " ill be there in 10 minutes, i im not, come looking for me, ill probably be in a trash can" alex yelled smiling. i sighed. " im sorry about karl, he's in a horrible mode since.." he said fading out on the end. i felt my throat clogged up as i rubbed my eyes, i had a massive headache do to the stress. " hey are you okay?" he said looking at me concerned. i shook my head no as i felt that lump in my throat get bigger. " do i need to get someone?" he closed his locker giving me a concerned look. i felt horrible, enough to fucking throw up. i grabbed my mouth and ran to the bathroom, alex followed behind me. i ran into a stall and locked it

"nick! nick open to door!" he said banging on to stall door. i put my head over to toilet ( im not describing throw up or just doing at all soo) " nick!-" he was cut off by two different people running in. " alex are you okay? i heard you yelling." i stayed quiet. " im fine im fine" he said. i coughed leaning against the stall wall on the floor. " nick?" said karl. " nick please just say something fucking anything!" alex said banging on the door again. " can you unlock to door nick?" i felt so dizzy, it was hard to breathe. " wait wait wait wait, why are me helping him?" karl said. " karl he's fucking about to pass out!" i slowly pushed myself up and unlocked the door and fell back down on the floor. george opened to door. i looked at them, i started struggling breathing looking at them, i still felt horrible. alex quickly walked in and helped me up and sat me by the sinks, i leaned on the wall. " ill go get someone, the first person i see." george said runnng out. karl and alex whispered things to each other. karl face was annoyed or mad then it went to guilty. he started at me. 

after a couple minutes, george ran in with schlatt behind him. he just started at me." you guys just go" schlatt said sending karl, george, and alex off. he looked mad as hell and he bent down next to me. " whats wrong?" i started crying. 

" schlatt im a terrible person, i tired to make myself stop doing stuff to alex and karl before it got to bad and i actually did damage to someone but i couldn't. i told myself this is the day i change this is the day and i make things right between karl and alex but i couldn't. i feel horrible about it but i cant stop, i wanted to stop before i did something and i did and now i cant even walk in school without feeling sick to my fucking stomach, i cant just live knowing i drove my ex bestfriend crazy enough for him to kill himself. i cant look myself in to mirror without wanting just to kill myself now."

i started crying more. his face went from angry to concerned. " hey hey, calm down just breathe alright." he said. i started trying to control my breathing but it wasnt working. my breathing just got faster and shorter. " nick! nick breathe, breathe, here breathe with me alright?" he said. he tried to calm me down. he breathed slowly but i did the opposite. i couldn't stop breathing fastly. " nick? look at me" he said. i looked at him in the eyes i was still crying, i could barley see him but i could tell he was worried. " i - can-t breat-he h-help me-" i started to gasp for air. i started feeling light-headed. " nick stay with me" i gasped for more air trying to just breathe. " sc- schlatt i-" everything went black. 

schlatt pov: 

"fuck, fuck fuck fuck!" i said seeing that he fainted. i went to feel if he had a pulse. i sighed in relief as a felt one. i put my arm under him so i could get him up and get him to the nurse. i got him up and walked down the hall to the office and knocked on the door with my foot. the door opened after a few seconds. i explained what happened. " i can keep him in my office till he wakes up. and if in case i can give him an inhaler to take with him or just go ahead and give him one" i nod me head. " yeah okay." i walked in and laid him down on the bed.

i had no clue he felt like that.

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im sorry its very short guys im just really tired :) and i think i might take a breake from updating this story since i do it daily-

word count :1379