𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐌|| 𝐊𝐀𝐑𝐋𝐍𝐀𝐏𝐈𝐓𝐘 || 𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐒𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐋 𝐀𝐔

Wish I was you.

TW: crying, self doubt, flashbacks, 

word count: 927 words

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he finished the note, " here," nick said handing the sheet of notebook paper. i took the sheet and read over it.

Hey Alex we came over by your house to get karls stuff open you don't mind :)

-karl and nick

.P.S.: spare key is under the flowerpot :)

i finished writing the p.s note and opened the car door and got out. nick noticed and quickly got out. i got the spare key and unlocked the door, to meetiger greeting us. " hey tiger" i said scratching her. i stepped over her and walked to Alex's bedroom. i laid the not on his bed as nick grabbed my stuff. tiger ran in the room and meowed. i walked over to nick to help him with my clothes. 

( FOR THE STORY KARL AND ALEX DATED FOR LIKE A YEAR BUT IT DOESNT MAKE SINCE SO LETS JUST SAY WHEN THEY WERE JUNIORS KARL AND NICK BROKE UP AND ALEX AND KARL DATED WITH THEY WERE JUNIORS SO NOW THEY BROKE UP WHEN SENIORS MHM)

 i slowly picked up the clothes and put them in the bag i had from when i first moved in with him. i stopped and walked over to the nightstand and picked up my polaroid and its film for it and walked back over and put it in the bag. after a couple of minutes, we finished our job of getting my clothes. i grabbed the bag and headed to the front door. i still was unsure of nick, i mean he helped me but he also is the reason my boyfriend broke up with me. i sighed and stopped. " can you carry this to the car? i need to use the bathroom," i said holding the bag out. " uh- yeah of course " he said smiling and taking the beg

i walk to the bathroom as he walks to the front door. i got to the bathroom door and opened it, i froze. i stared at the floor as i re-imaged alex's dead body on the floor, his lifeless body, laying on the floor, with a blood pool around him. the yells I made came back which filled my head 

 "No no no no NO NO NO, ALEX WAKE UP, PLEASE, I NEED YOU, YOU CANT LEAVE."

I gasped and quickly left. i didn't feel comfortable in there, I walked to the car just wanting to forget what I saw, I walked to the car and got in the car. " hey are you okay?" nick asked looking at me with concern, " hm- oh me? yeah, I'm fine.." I said completely lying. "okay.. tell me in anything wrong bud alright?" he said putting his hand on my knee and looked at me. i smiled and nodded. 

i grabbed his phone and unlocked it. i went to spotify and put on the song Tanked Up by Everest and Ringer by Everest. Nick smiled as he hummed to the song.

quackity pov:

"fuck!" I yelled and hit my steering wheel. (road rage) i felt a tear go down my cheek. i bit my lip and gripped my steering wheel. "was I ever good enough? I'm such I fuck up punz. what was I thinking I'm a shitty kid..." I said knowing that what Karl did was a complete accident. " look Alex calm down-"

" no punz I can't fucking calm down I just lost the love of my life how the fuck am supposed to calm down?! I am such I shit person I ruined everything! everything! god, why am I like this? i fucking hate my life!"

I said yelling I started breathing slowly trying to control my breathing before it got out of hand. "... look-... everything is gonna turn out fine we'll-... we'll find a way," punz said sounding a bit sad. " I'm sorry- I'm just fucking-" I groaned, I couldn't explain it. i still loved Karl. but its obvious he loves nick. not me...

" its okay alex I get it. i promise everything is fine, take a few deep breaths and calm down..."

I sighed. " punz its just- why would he ever like someone like me I mean look at me! I'm a fuck up. i mean nick is a straight-A student, Plays football, is Popular, and is just your high school date dream, then look at me, yeah I might get straight A's but I don't play football, I'm not even that popular, or I don't even look nearly as good looking as nick! I'm literally half as pretty. and not to mention Karl he's handsome as hell he's cute and nice and always knows what to do in a situation. why would he ever want to date someone like me?" 

silence filled the call.

"alex don't ever think your not enough cause you are more than enough. you are probably one of the funniest people I've ever met and who gives a living fuck what people think of you cause you are the best. Alex you're not alone there are people out there just like you." punz said

I sighed, "I'm gonna just go home, I just need time." I said. he hummed. " I understand bud, if you need anything call me ill always be around." 

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hey guys I'm lazy so I'm ending it here :)