𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 ( 𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘 1 )

𝟰 𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠 𝙣𝙪𝙢𝙗𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙬𝙤

𝗧𝗪: 𝙥𝙖𝙣𝙞𝙘 𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙖𝙘𝙠

( Maya POV )

Right now it's time for dinner but I wasn't hungry so I skipped it and
just sat in the girls drom on my bed laying and being lost in my toughs

I was soo anxious because after dinner I'm supposed to go to Dumbledore's office to find out more about my father

I had sooo many toughs and questions about my father in my head that I couldn't process, and that was really giving me some anxiety

So the time has passed and I am supposed to go and talk whit the headmaster and I was panicking my mind off , I didn't want to go I wasn't ready to know more about my dad, but I need to know about my family if not now then don't know when I will

I am walking through the hall to the Dumbledore's office and I was pretty nervous, but for some reason I didn't really understand why was I nervous , I didn't know the specific reason to why was I so nervous bc usually people are not so anxious about talking about their family or getting to know them, especially as an a orphan

Walking trough the hallway can some times be like a hell especially now after meal when all the students go back to the their common room and so it gets really busy and suffocating

Finally after the five minute walk I am in front of Dumbledore's office and let me tell you I had so much anxiety going on in me that I was thinking about running of and going back to the common room whit no hesitation , but I was still pushing me on so I got my self pulled up together and took a deep breath

"lemon drop" and whit that I walked in the office looking down at my feet not wanting to make any eye contact that wasn't necessary

As I reach to the chair and pulled it out still looking at the ground I could see in the corner of my eye the there were three more figures sitting at the table, and whit panic I stopped what I was doing but quickly continue and sit on the chair not wanting to draw attention

It was I silence for a moment which was making me uncomfortable and like I was in some sort of trap, and whit all of my toughs going around my head making me anxious I slowly pulled my head up to look and see how is in the room

The person in front of me was Dumbledore and besides him was Minerva my professor and my head of the house, what was she doing here? Dose she know? well I didn't really have a problem whit her staying here so it didn't bother me , I looked to other side and I saw...my dad...no no no no what is he doing here but before I could process my toughs I was cut of by Dumbledore

"So Miss Lupin as you know you heard the news this morning and your here so we can process those news but before we get in to that, I want to say that I only told about this to your professor McGonagall" he said looking at me in my eyes and then he
turned his head to my dad how is looking pretty confused and awkward like his was just dragged here and told nothing "Remus she is your daughter" I heard him say whit no emotions made in his voice

My dad was looking at me directly in my eyes whit a little shook on his face , and I was really uncomfortable whit him looking at me like that it was making me panic

"Now that you both know I tough it would be only fair if you two process this together alone so me and Minerva are gonna leave you here" he said as he gets up and leaves the room with Minerva behind him

It was just me and my dad sitting in this room it was so awkward and I looked at my lap and saw that my leg was shaking, this didn't happened to me in months

ok I need to calm down I need to keep my toughs in place this can't be happening again I don't want this to happen again please just stop whit this Maya please

I told my self trying to calm down because I know were this is going and I really didn't want it to happen

"So your my dad so who is my mum?" I asked trying to make a conversation because I couldn't be in this uncomfortable silence anymore it was making my toughs go wild

"Well you see Maya you don't have a mum" as I herd that i lost track of toughs and I could feel some chest pains getting in me and my hand was now also starting to shake but not so much and I couldn focus on the conversation that much "is my mum dead" i asked shyly hoping that the answer is no

"You never actually had a mum your brith was in fact a miracle " he said to me whit calm voice and he was looking at me playing whit my shaky fingers but I was to busy trying to elaborate what he just said to me to realize that

"what do you mean I never actually had a mum" I asked but this time I was looking at him in the eyes really confused since I only know that when I was just a baby my parents dropped me off to their friends house  while they were out and then someone got in the house and murdered my parents friends and that I somehow didn't died and I was 30 minutes after that taken to the orphanage

"Well you were made by same gender project and after a week that place was shut down and you were the only one how survived " he said in really claiming voice

"So you're...gay?" I made my self spit that that last part of that sentence out my mouth, which in response he nodded yes

"if you don't mind me asking who is my other dad"

" I don't think I can tell you right now but It was the men I really loved he was my love of the life but he changed...and let's say he is facing consequences in Azkaban" I herd him say that in colder tone

I was totally lost in my toughs, I have two dads and one is in Azkaban, what did my other dad do to be in Azkaban?i didn't realize how much I zoned out because now I felt my breath was a lot Slower and my chest was hurting and my leg was shaking together whit my hands I was staring a panic attack

Ok clam down is ok were going trough this is going to be fine just suck it up

I told my self but the door open and Dumbledore walked in, just in right time

"So it's getting late and you two are now allowed to go" he said and I quickly got up and run to the door "Goodbye professor" I said to the headmaster as I left the room still having panic attack and I could feel a tear escape my eyes as I run trough the hallway to go to the common room

Soon as I got to the common room I run to the girls bathroom and since no ones is there I looked the door and grabbed my wand and muttered a silencing charm under my breath and let my self fall to the floor

My chest was hurting my head was pounding my leg was shaking and so did my hand and I couldn't breath normally and it was really hot and whit all my toughs going around in my head it was just not good

I was in the bathroom having panic attack for about 20 minutes until i calm my self down

Since i am in the bathroom I decided to take a shower, and I tired and just not in the mood to go to my drom to get my pj so I just did a spell"accio my pajamas" and my pj appeared in the air and i grabbed them and took a hot shower and brushed my teeth

As i was settled up i got to my bed and just lay on it thinking about the talk I had whit my dad, as more as I think about it i get more questions going around in my mind and it was giving me flash back of panic attack so i tried to changed the topic in my head and closed my eyes , about 20 minutes later I was fast asleep