Believe me, you'll leave me

10

One day before fezcos birthday , Nova overdosed not that she planned to but she bought some drugs online which was a big mistake , when they arrived and she took them turned out they were some sick ass pills. I found her the next day on the floor and we immediately called the embulance.
When Ashtray found out he came to the hospital, as soon as I told him she were there. He didn't left her hospital room , till the nurse told him too , he also missed fezcos birthday and trust me if Nova knew this she would kill Ashtray for it. She hated fezco but it was still his brother and she knew how much he meant to him ,
but how I already said he was in love.

I feel like shit , like literally I've been in the hospital for 5 days and they gonna let me out today , thank God. I definitely learned my lesson , I swear I gonna fuck this motherfucker up. But I don't wanna think about that anymore, I feel way more bad for mom. I let ner down again and , rue doesn't get better either I feel she is so disappointed in us. Also I need to talk to Ali again , it's been a while and I want to get clean. Like fr this time.

" hi baby " mom says as she walks up to me in the hospital "hi mom " I kiss her on the check, " where's rue ?" I ask her she said she would come , " she said she has to go to a birthday, some boy I forgot his name " she says taking my bag , weird fezcos birthday was over a week ago until they didn't went but why should they cancel it. We walk up to the car and drive home in silence, as I'm back home I get a text message from Ashtray.

Ash🚀

Nov, u back home ?

Yeah yeah I am , how was fezcos birthday party?

Umm good

Nice ,I still have his gift , when should I give it to you ?

Can I come over ?

Sure

Aight see ya

I put on some normal clothes and shower before , I look very bad from the hospital and I also feel disgusting. As is finish the doorbell rings . " Hi ash " I say opening up the door , " get ready were going to fezcos birthday ", he says "what , wasn't it like a week ago ?" I ask him confused " Ugh yeah but something important came in between " he looks down , " oh well okey "

I'm not really in the mood to talk about it so I just grab the gift put some clothes on and we walk to his place. Rue was there so I was right about it , a blonde girl was also there and a guy. " Nov " rue says as she walks up to hug me , I hug her back " hi rue " I say only for her to hear.

" happy birthday fezco " I say while up to him , " thanks " he gives a small smile , but he looks sad.
" hi , I'm Faye " the blonde girl says " I'm Nova " I smile at her " are you that girl who overdosed?" What the fuck did she just asked me , only rue and Ash knew , " bro " fezco says touching his forehad , I look at him and then at rue and ashtray. " Ugh, I guess " Im so embarrassed right know , why did I thought it was a good idea to go to his birthday.

" I should leave , Ash " I whisper in his ear , as I hand him the gift " Nova, it's really not like that " he says grabbing my arm " I don't care , I'm very uncomfortable " I say as I leave the room . I walk out of the house til someone stops me " Yo Nova stop a sec " fezco says behind me , " what ?",

" Look Ashtray didn't told you but we couldn't celebrate my birthday because of you , he told me you overdosed and he visited you there 24/7 , and I get it but look man don't leave him like that , he's scared to leave you alone and you do shit like that all the time , like stop being so selfish man and come back" he says , " he was there ?" , " of course he was , I was too " he says quite " Why?" , " Nova just come back " he doesn't answer my question but I see his point , since I started doing drugs I'm so selfish and I barely notice it , so at some point I happy that he is so open about the truth.

We both walk back together , and I see ash smiling. " Ash can we talk ?" I ask him , he nods and we go into his room "why didn't you told you were there ?" , " what are u talkin about ?" , he asks but he definitely knows what I mean " the hospital ,when I relapsed " I say quite , he looks down as he has to think what he's gonna say .

" Nova, I've seen some fucked up shit in my life you know that , but there is nothing compared like seeing your best friend overdosing , over the things you sell to other people , you fucked me up, because all I think about is , how this is my fault. You won't get it but it's true, I don't want you to fucking kill yourself Nov " he says , and again he's right , is today some kind of tell Nova the truth day.

" It's not your fault, it never was and it never will be" I tell him , " you don't get it , do you ?" , he asks , " no I don't, but I'm trying to get clean okey , I wanna do my best" I convince him , " I know you are " , " Ash, you're my best friend , I love you forever, I would never do that to you " I say smiling , grabbing his shoulder, he gives me a smile but doesn't respond which is not special because everytime I say some cute shit he never responds , he never knows what to respond to that and I don't mind.

fezco had no idea , about Ashtrays feelings, they were brothers and shared everything together but they barely talked about their feelings with each other , also because I was like a sister to him , he got it why Ashtray was so protective over Nova.
She actually wanted to get clean but she knew it would be much harder than she thought.